m y . l i f e . m y . w o r d s .

cruel for a reason

2012-01-28T22:39:00.002+08:00

the title says it all.

i go explaining myself to people most of the time when there are misunderstandings.

and now, i don't anymore. grown up maybe? or maybe not?

i guess i never liked running away from problems. i would push myself to face them even if it means going through the hardest time ever. i think i'm born with such character. my mum told me so at least. so yes, when i run away, something is not right.

but im alright.

my source of strength, my source of hope, is Christ alone :)

disastrous monday

2012-01-16T17:52:00.002+08:00

what a day to start off my last week before CNY..

think its one of the most disastrous day in this KK.

the first patient of the day no. 1001 (psy patient) actually threatened that she will kill me if i dont give her medicines. if it was back then, i would probably be scared and calm her down saying nice words. surprisingly, today i couldnt be bothered at all. i gave her the -.- look and walked off. it almost felt like "whatever you wanna do la auntie"..... and she went "i want my injection i want my injection, im going to kill people!".. and i was ady sitting in front of her giving her her medicines. =.=

then came this patient who was prescribed with MDI Budesonide and i happily dispensed MDI to him. thankfully i dono what hit him, before he left, he said "okay, so this one spray nose one la har..."..... i gave him a loud "HAR?!".. then i came to realise patient has been using Budesonide Nasal Spray instead of MDI. first pissed off case of the day with the doc! prescribing MDI for nasal spray?! =.=" pleaseeeeeeee!

tick tock tick tock.. 12pm (at the 425th patient) super a lot of patients for a KK like this eh.....

this is probably the most *ka-boom* thing that happened today.

a patient came for MDI. looked at how quick she's using her salbutamol, i figured she must not be using it the correct way. so i thought of doing a reassessment and wanted to teach her the right way. as i taught her, i might be a little stern and my tone sounded a little impatient. thats because she wasnt serious in learning and she even couldnt breathe in and out the CORRECT way. okay nvm. so i go on teaching... i promised i didnt scold or raised my voice. the next thing i know, she starting sobbing away in front of everyone at the counter =( SIGH! the whole thing looked AWKWARD. i couldnt believe i actually made a patient cried. i mean, making someone cry feels horrible. like seriously....... at least for me la. sigh!

the list can just go on n on..

came this kid! everyone knows i love kids. but this kid............. the story just doesnt seem right to be written out in words. but for all u know, a pharmacist in her lab coat sitting at the counter trying to stop the kid from doing naughty stuff. and he actually HIT my hand away when i was holding on to sth he wanted to grab~ =.=" he just comes n goes and disturb our work through out a good half an hour.. =.="! ARGH~

thennnnn. came an english speaking male patient. with another pakistan looking male patient following behind. out of curiousity, i simply asked as a healthcare person, "so whats the reason that u came to the doctor today?"

with no hesitation, he answered "gonorrhea".. *with a smile*

typically someone who cant handle awkward moment, i think i did quite well acting normal. with a very cool tone, i went "oh okay". dispensing ended and then, came two kepoh nurses! LOL.. they came and told the whole story of the two patients and starting gossiping around. MIGOSH...... how unethical i know. but crap, it totally made my day. seeing how kepoh these people can be and how they were trying so hard only to whisper and not be loud. ultra funneh......... =.=

3 more hours to go before i can go back and have a hot shower and hop onto my half dead bed! thank God the day is ending soon. may tomorrow be a better day~ :( Amen and Amen...

insanity

2012-01-15T19:09:00.002+08:00

someone once said

"the inability to accept loss is a form of insanity. but sometimes its the only way to help us stay alive.."

then someone else said

"time heals. sooner or later however great or heart piercing memories will tend to fade"

sane or insane really?

i've been observing this couple that comes monthly to the clinic to collect medicines. the wife is a Malay and the husband is a Chinese (a convert). the first time i saw her, i felt a twist in my stomach because i just know that she is not... ordinary. her face is always full of white powder and she would sit down n bang on the table with a loud sigh each time she comes to collect her medicine. on her left side, her husband is there. standing and listening to me dispensing patiently.

each time, his wife would go complaining about the medicines loudly and that she doesnt wanna take the medicine and all. the husband would patiently pat on her back and looked at me and said "sorry..... ignore her".. when this situation strikes, i can feel my heart softens and the only thing in mind is "how many of us can do what this uncle is doing?".. what we see is only that few minutes.. but what has been going on might have been years and yearsss. and more yearsss to come.. i know im being bias. but im extraordinary nice to this uncle when he comes because i really looked up to what he has been doing and the patience n love he has for his wife. be it love or responsibility, i'm impressed.

how many can actually be there for the person they love through bad and suffering times? saying words and languages of love can be so easy. but how many can actually do it ?

......

things have been..... not very well lately. nobody knows and nobody should know. the only person ive known for years and knows that im not well told me "just come to me when theres anything"..

but im not someone who goes telling people im not well. im someone who says "im okay. im good. i am.. haiya, same lorrr"..

its all in the mind. if u choose to ignore it, it will be away for a while. but the next thing u know, its back in ur mind again.

Isaiah 55:8-13

signing off.........

broken

2012-01-12T07:43:00.002+08:00

雨都停了
yu dou ting le
这片天灰什么呢
zhe pian tian hui shen me ne
我还记得
wo hai ji de
你说我们要快乐
ni shuo wo men yao kuai le

深夜里的脚步声
shen ye li de jiao bu sheng
总是刺耳
zong shi ci er
害怕寂寞
hai pa ji mo
就让狂欢的城市陪我关灯
jiu rang kuang huan de cheng shi pei wo guan deng

只是哪怕周围再多人
zhi shi na pa zhou wei zai duo ren
感觉还是一个人
gan jue hai shi yi ge ren
每当我笑了
mei dang wo xiao le
心却狠狠的哭著
xin que hen hen de ku zhe

给我一个理由忘记
gei wo yi ge li you wang ji
那么爱我的你
na me ai wo de ni
给我一个理由放弃
gei wo yi ge li you fang qi
当时做的决定
dang shi zuo de jue ding
有些爱越想抽离却越更清
you xie ai yue xiang chou li que yue geng qing，xi
而最痛的距离是你不在身边
er zui tong de ju li shi ni bu zai shen bian
却在我的心里
que zai wo de xin li

当我走在去过的每个地方
dang wo zou zai qu guo de mei ge di fang
总会听到你那最自由的笑
zong hui ting dao ni na zui zi you de xiao
当我回到一个人住的地方
dang wo hui dao yi ge ren zhu de di fang
lyricsalls.blogspot.com
最怕看到冬天你最爱穿的那
zui pa kan dao dong tian ni zui ai chuan de na
件外套
jian wai tao

只是哪怕周围再多人
zhi shi na pa zhou wei zai duo ren
感觉还是一个人
gan jue hai shi yi ge ren
每当我笑了
mei dang wo xiao le
心却狠狠的哭著
xin que hen hen de ku zhe

给我一个理由忘记
gei wo yi ge li you wang ji
那么爱我的你
na me ai wo de ni
给我一个理由放弃
gei wo yi ge li you fang qi
当时做的决定
dang shi zuo de jue ding
有些爱
you xie ai
越想抽离却越更清晰
yue xiang chou li que yue geng qing xi
而最痛的距离是你不在身边
er zui tong de ju li shi ni bu zai shen bian
却在我的心里
que zai wo de xin li

我找不到理由忘记
大雨里的别离
我找不到理由放弃
我等你的决心
有些爱
越想抽离却越更清晰
而最痛的距离
是你不在身边却在我的心里
我想你

Give Me a Reason to Forget

The rain has stopped, why is the sky still so grey
I still remember you said that we have to be happy
The footsteps of the midnight are always harsh
Afraid of loneliness, so let the revelry city turn off the lights with me
Even though there are many people around, it still feels like I’m very much alone
Every time I smiled, my heart is crying bitterly

Give me a reason to forget the 「you」 that loved me so much
Give me a reason to give up the decision that was made before
Some love, the more you want to pull yourself out from, the clearer it gets
The most painful distance is when you are not beside me but is in my heart

When I visit the places that we have been before, I always hear your unrestrained laughs
When I return to the place where I am living alone, the scariest thing to see is the jacket that you loved to wear in winter
Even though there are many people around, it still feels like I’m very much alone
Every time I smiled, my heart is crying bitterly
Give me a reason to forget the 「you」 that loved me so much
Give me a reason to give up the decision that was made before
Some love, the more you want to pull yourself out from, the clearer it gets
The most painful distance is when you are not beside me but in my heart

I could not find a reason to forget our parting in the rain
I could not find a reason to give up, I am waiting from your determination
Some love, the more you want to pull yourself out from, the clearer it gets
The most painful distance is when you are not beside me but in my heart
I miss you.

even now..

2012-01-04T18:32:00.004+08:00

Its a title of a book that ive been reading in the past 2 years. ive practically abandoned the book for more than a year now. u see, i practise reading every night before i sleep when i was in UK. being in my cozy single bed over there just makes reading much more pleasing. now im back on track!! *hakkkk*

stopped blogging for a year plus after completing my pharmacy course in UK. or rather, completing my absolutely unforgettable "trip" to UK for a year.. i think no one reads this blog anymore (just as what ms foomeiwen mentioned in her blog too... :P) but part of me am glad really. lol.. its unbelievable what ive wrote in the past!

someone came to me and told me "u girls just never blog anymore after UK, do u? no life ady is it?!"

well he is right. pretty much no life. no life, no time, too tired to write about anything at all.

life has been a roller coaster for me in the past two years.

like today for instance.. i spent almost an hour reading a blog that i should have NEVER read... i felt like a fool after reading and totally lost my appetite for my lou shu fan on the table. i feel like the emoticon i always used back when i was on MSN. the crazy woman banging her head on the table and shaking her head non stop! =.="

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i hate putting myself in such a condition! but i always do so! pushing myself to the maximum that i cannot take it anymore and break down... just because i really wanna know the truth about everything!!!!

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been working on a song lately. samm was supposed to compose for me and ive been working on the lyrics.. sis told me to sing a song on her wedding. so i thought, hmmm i might as well write a praise and worship song and sing..... =)

u see.. she told me to be her wedding planner. apparently she was too kiamsiap to hire one.. shrug, she will regret saving that eenie meenie amount of money.. :P and my parents are so excited about my voice when they hear me sing again that day. they wanted me to record a CD. they even agreed that my very-often-late-night outings pay off pretty well =.=" i think my parents and one and only sis are starting to lose their mind......

sometimes i wish i was a much more selfish person that i will just be so rebellious and say anything i want, do anything i want without thinking of the consequences. u see, sometimes u naturally do things for the people u love.. u dont want them to get hurt, to get into trouble or to be sad...... so even when you're ultra sad and broken, u would just either cry them off alone or bear with the painful moments for God knows how long yourself...........

i was once with a person who made me feel like the happiest little girl in his palms. every weekend the only thing i look forward to is to SEE him and the most dreadful thing was to watch him LEAVE every Sunday night. things got ugly and ever since then, i've never given my heart away.. people ask ALL the time.. "how could you not have a boyfriend?"

how could i have a boyfriend should be the ultimate question. guys do EVERYTHING they can to win ur heart when they want you. trust me when i say i know this well enough.

99 roses delivered to the doorstep? checked!
a bouquet of flowers delivered to college/uni? checkec checked! a few times
a tiffany & co necklace? checked!
romantic candle light dinner? checked checked checked! a few times, again..
playing guitar and singing song? checked! and it was absolutely touching! like, so?
telling you how long they've waited for you to agree to be their gf? owh.. so old skool and still, it works on a lot of girls!
driving 3 and a half hours to see you just because you were angry? yeah, for the first time, see how long that will last!

so yes. from my mum not believing that i wont be in a relationship anymore. to now, my mum is actually worried i'm serious about not getting married and will never get married. she so wanna get rid of me! =.=

things i miss :

my mix combi of friends. from the left: 30 yr old mummy, ultra 30 po, *skip*, super guai girl, fierce and inpatient girl, unpredictable and quiet girl, my favourite mummy cum my used-to-be twin in OPD and lastly, manja yet independent girl!

my sam cum uni mates!

my housemates in UK! the beautiful weather in Amsterdam~ :(

i miss my final grad night where my big time ang moh crush told me i looked absolutely beautiful that night. i almost melted!

i miss being wrapped like a bak zhang! and that phone....... i miss it!

my discipler in Glasgow..

theres so many things i wanna do.

i wanna sing again.
i wanna take a step forward in my education life.
i wanna move to a new place.
i need to be all hyped up about life again!

Dear Lord, tell me Your plans for me so that i won't feel like a lost meh-meh =(

p/s - i hope mummy didnt read this! Amen.

darn it! i wanna go home NOW! =.=

不是故意 - Bu Shi Gu Yi

2012-01-02T20:57:00.002+08:00

stopped asking why.

2011-12-29T20:25:00.003+08:00

what triggered me to blog once again..
working extended hours in my pathetic KK here and i was going through my email and found this bible reading plan 2012..

been doing quiet time almost every day since more than a month ago.. ok, maybe every two to three days....... and today i found this pretty good bible reading plan by YouVersion..

as i clicked in, this came out..

Psalm 6
1 Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger
or discipline me in your wrath.
2 Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint;
heal me, Lord, for my bones are in agony.
3 My soul is in deep anguish.
How long, Lord, how long?
4 Turn, Lord, and deliver me;
save me because of your unfailing love.
5 Among the dead no one proclaims your name.
Who praises you from the grave?
6 I am worn out from my groaning.
All night long I flood my bed with weeping
and drench my couch with tears.
7 My eyes grow weak with sorrow;
they fail because of all my foes.
8 Away from me, all you who do evil,
for the Lord has heard my weeping.
9 The Lord has heard my cry for mercy;
the Lord accepts my prayer.
10 All my enemies will be overwhelmed with shame and anguish;
they will turn back and suddenly be put to shame.

and as i was reading through the comments.. words started to flow in my head.. and there was this particular comment that moved me..

"At times in our life, we just have no more to give. We can do nothing more. The challenges have taken their toll.

David felt this pain. He exclaimed, "[a]ll night I flood my bed with weeping." Can you feel the emotion in those words? It wasn't a temporary feeling in insecurity that produced some anxiety--it was an all night flood of tears.

In this situation, he went to God and laid out his heart. He was honest with God. In this, he knew the Lord had heard his plea and would answer his prayer. I pray for such confidence.

Even with this confidence, David's emotions were still very raw. But, he knew he could trust the one that knows the plans He has for us.

God is big enough to handle our honest revelations of what is bothering us. After all, he knows all before we have even revealed anything. Go to Him, allow Him to take your burdens. Give them to Him.."

Exactly how i felt lately. even with the confidence that God is definitely with me, im still weak as a person.. More than thankful for His words. am still struggling. but ill never stop trying and trying to continue to fix my eyes upon Him in this bumpy race that im in.

thank You Lord.

singapore!

2010-10-11T15:37:00.003+08:00

:)

got back from singapore yesterday night. the 3 days trip was super tiring. dont know why but all 5 of us were like half dead all the time. the weather was crazy humid! and i guess we never really enjoy walking. well not under such hot sun! =.=

though it was tiring, i kinda enjoyed this kinda frens outing and meeting up with the long lost fren over there :) catching up and plain crapping around in the hotel was just great..

din take much photos :) yea for the first time eh? haha.. to be honest, we really din do much there. visited sentosa, singapore zoo and bugis street. all three days were hot hot hot and HOT. thats pretty much all that i can rmb =P hahaha..

think all the places in my places-to-go list hv been crossed out. only left with Genting now! roarrr! wanna go before i start work.. but i guess it wont come true nemore =.= oh well..

SIGH! i wannnn my job! =(

根本就没那么爱他..

2010-09-29T16:22:00.001+08:00

你有权利情绪化
你不一定要坚强
但有些事情不能伪装
别为自己设了框
我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答

其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下

我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答

其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
深呼吸抬头望
发现天空很宽广
这世界那么大
幸福总会在某个地方

其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
拥有过的计划
留给值得的对象
你知道不会是他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
认清了真心话
你就放得下

whatcha looking for in your another half?

2010-09-27T21:52:00.002+08:00

been hearing a lot lately.. and that makes it hard not to think about this question once again..

"what do i want in my another half?"

some goes for looks.
some goes for $$$.
some goes for inner beauty.
some goes for feelings. just the right feelings will do.
some goes for the bigger consideration, family background.

i am glad i've grown out of that little square of mine. which is why its about time for me to ask myself what do i want once again. instead of pushing people away just because i feel not ready and uneasy talking about love again.

as often as someone has been trying to brain wash me that girls are ALL looking for $$$ in their another half, i still think thats rubbish. at least i dont. well, THANKFULLY i was never brought up that way.

moderate is good enough for me =)

looks.. doesnt matter to me. hahaha. i hope this doesnt offend anyone i was with in the past =X it really doesnt.. ill always rmb what my friend said "as long as see ady, wont feel like puking good enough" LOL! but i do care about height! very sorry to say, i cant accept anyone shorter than me or only slightly taller than me.. =X

moving on to the most important part.. i find smart + humble guys very very attractive =) very down to earth person tat kind.. i often tell myself if i don meet such a person, i wont start any relationship.. hahaha, well.. i think if tat thinking continues, i will stay single forever.. realise there are hardly any humble guys who still exist =(

i used to be that kinda girl who goes *SNAP*.. right feeling and thats it.. quite on ady.. LOL.. well not anymore =) i supposed its a good thing..

then there comes family background.. it sucks when u meet this very nice person and his family sucks to the max.. if u noe wat i mean? =.= well it sucks equally to meet a useless freak with a vy kind and nice family.. but wat are the chances to meet such person la right? =.= when family background comes into consideration, financial status follows..

ISN'T IT JUST COMPLICATED?......

=) but God provides. He has plans for me. and i will hold on to that trust and hope i have in Him.

so, whatcha looking for in ur partner? :)

xx

crap!

2010-08-31T02:04:00.003+08:00

today reminds me so much of what happened.

from the slightest thing to the biggest thing..

this used to be a place where ill plan what i wanna write and make sure the flow goes right (well it still goes wrong most of the time) =.= from now on, it will just be a place where ill simply crap whatever i want. cos i'm super ultra mega bored..............

:( :( :(

Grad Ball 2010

2010-06-04T09:50:00.003+08:00

just got back from Grad Ball :)

it was awesomeeeeee. the last ball i went.. it was so boring that i had this super ultra mega bad impression about ball..

this time around, i wasnt excited about it at all. NOT AT ALL. i wont purposely mention it to anyone at all. i even FORGOT about the date alot of times. and i actually asked someone to help me get the clutch for the ball only on THE DAY of the ball :P

anyways :) i had a GREAT greatttt time..

started preparing in the morning. had my hair curled TWICE cos it just got back to its straight form after like 2 hours or so.

thought we had plenty of time but we GIRLS ended up in such a hurry. especially me :( guess what.. i forgot about my watch, i forgot to spray on perfume, i forgot to paint my nails =.="

sneak peek of how i look :)

happppyyyy girl i am :) other than the sore feet i've got now after wearing long hours of my super high heels (for me its high la at least).. everything else was GREATTTTTTTT overall :)

and i wished i could show my mum and dad before i head out this evening :( sadly it was kinda late for them ady.

but my lovely juniors came over to see me and help me out with my hair and watch me going crazy cos i was late late lateeee :P

so sweeeet of them =)

its 3am now. another busy day tomorrow. day after tomorrow and also sunday.

by saturday, i wont be in this cozy room of mine anymore :( i honestly love this roooommmm to bits. its where i cried and laughed most!

oh well.

everything comes to an end.

p/s - reached my ultimate motive in grad ball today! woooootttttt :P

nights peeps! xxx

homemade mushroom soup

2010-05-25T00:04:00.004+08:00

its holidays!

and i've been out every single day.

today is the official first day that i get to stay at home :) well i still went out.. lol but i got to stay in my room to do my own things for ONCE after such a long time..

cooked myself my favourite minced pork noodles and then decided to cook mushroom soup! :)

lemme share the recipe here :P i actually got the recipe from boe but both of us couldnt rmb much..

so i just did according to what i rmb roughly :P

yes. ull need lotsa lotsa mushroom.. :)

1) Onions - chop them into small bits
2) Mushrooms - chop them into small bits too. well mine werent too small cos i find it soooo tiring to chop so many mushrooms.

I didnt put garlic cos i was again.. too lazy to chop another thing :P

Chuck in some butter into the pan and fry the onions till it smells good!
Chuck in the chopped mushrooms
Pour in some flour till all of the mushrooms are coated
Pour in some milk (lol. lousiest recipe ever)
Let it boil and add in some chicken stock if you like :)
If its not thick enough, just pour in more flour till its thick enough for your liking
Add some salt and pepper :)

And taaa daaaa..

i love it! :)

okay. now i gotta go for bbq and i dont know where are my housemates. =.="

i sooooooo love my days here! weeeeeeee!

bye

sleepless post-exam night

2010-05-15T09:15:00.003+08:00

so this morning darren popped up from msn. and here's what he said :

i was like "!#@$&^%$#@!@^&$%^%$#"

he was not the first or second MMU-ians to come telling me this... zzzz.. havent got the chance to talk to him yet after my exam though.. but HAKKKKKKK, i finished mine too!!! :P

as crazy as it sounds. yes.. SLEEPless night..

didnt rest at all. called home and chatted away in msn. rushed to church :) then went to Asian Gourmet with a bunch of real great people! =)

it was so funny and even before we headed in, Retsat was telling me "i have a feeling this is gonna be a real loud dinner"

LOL. and it really was! had such a good timeee. had so much laugh that i felt my jaw hurts! lol.. i think the look on ALL of our faces were pricelessss. totally STRESS-less! i know it might sound absurd. but i really wasnt as happy as i thought i would be =.=

came back and watched a bit of movie with the girls and had some ice cream :) then pack pack..

and taa daaa..

leaving to the airport for Barcelona in like an hour time. so yea, that concludes my sleepless night.

to end with.. my super ultra mega chan look after 6 weeks plus of "war"..

and not to forget, my HUGE table and COMFY chair for my finals. kekeke :)

p/s - i never felt so sleepyyyy during an exam before! i actually held my BNF and lied on it halfway thru the paper. i was just SOOOOOOOOOO tired. 100 ques is CRAZZEEEEE..

i know right. what am i doing here! ish..

lets see if i can get an hour sleep :) byessss

yes He is..

2010-05-04T07:10:00.002+08:00

read someone's blog and it deeply touched me.

its amazing how He changed ppl's lives. from someone who was totally ignorant of what matters and live his/her own life through his/her own way.. to someone who totally surrenders to Him and Him alone..

yes Lord. indeed i am truly thankful. that You're just one prayer away. anytime anywhere.

4th-14th May. I believe O Lord, You will see me and the others through. All glory to You and You alone.

motivations!

2010-04-21T07:25:00.005+08:00

i ammmmmmm like an oooogwayyyyyyyyyyyyyy...... in my studies i mean..

recently just got to learn back on how to fold oogway.. and i have few oogways to accompany me while i study. used some of them to wrap my chewing gums at times.. so im left with two now though.. teehehehe =)

taking a break now. which i totally dont deserve =(

few motivations to keep me going:
1) God - His strength has been the most encouraging one and the one i rely most on during both good and bad times..
2) Parents - i super dupper ultra mega (10000x) cant wait to have them over! cant wait to see them cant wait to cook for them cant wait to talk to them cant wait to go travel around with them cant wait for everything to be done WITH THEM.
3) Graduation Day!
4)Visit of a friend all the way from Singapore =)
5) The many many things to do AFTER this exam..............

I honestly cant wait to graduate.

I know how work will suck. I know how i will probably be one of those many who say "study is much more better than to work".

But right now, i really just cant wait. graduate is like a must anyways. so why not look forward to what has to come in the future.

Since young, i dreammmm of growing up faster. now that i've officially entered adulthood. i have so much to look forward to.

to do the things i like especially. im sooo gonna fill my time with doing things that i likeeee out of my working time :)

well its just a dream of a pre-grad student struggling through her prep for finals nowwww. lets see by then ill still have the energy to do all those or not after work. =.=

proofs of me leaving my comp OFF at most times when i study. haha :)

and a video to share..

she is sooooooooooooooooo cuteeeeeeeee!

*slap slap* back to studies.

nights.

my biggest lesson

2010-04-16T20:41:00.003+08:00

disclaimer : i wrote this post just for myself to read back in the future. just so that i know what happened and how much i should appreciate people around me more :) and i dont think i've ever been so open about my feelings before.. i just felt this is really really a huge lesson in my life and i shall not hide what i've learnt :)

you know how people always say "life is short, appreciate what you have now"

yea like every other person, i say the same thing from time to time. not knowing the TRUE meaning of it.

until last few days.......

it was when i really really realise how fragile life is and how short and how long we ought to live in this world is really not under our control at all..

it is probably one of my biggest lessons in life so far.. it may not appear to anyone how this can affect my perception and thinking sooo much.. but it really did hit me big time.. like a super loud wake up call..

now that i think back, i am surprised myself how worried and how freaked out i was when i first heard of him being in icu and his condition was bad..

at that point of time, i was just so worried.. i tried whatever ways to find out how was he and contact whoever to get to know about his condition without thinking twice..

im not sure if he stands a special position in my heart still but from what happened, i know deep down i care for this person a lot a lot. despite all the arguments and lost in touch for some time..... its funny how we care for each other and we're always there for each other no matter how long we've not been in touch.. ok maybe ive never been there for him much.. :S he's also the first person i fast and prayed for..... in fact, i did not even hesitate even one second to do it..

he's all fine and well now. hearing his voice again made me feel so much better.. i was just filled with guilt and sorrow for the words i've said and how we suddenly turned from very close to total strangers... i promised myself that if he recovers, ill put down all my ego and tell him how this experience changed me..

and i did :)

told him i was so scared that he'll be gone forever.. he only said something simple and most probably he said the same thing to his zillions of friends..

"im fine now.. don worry alright? i wont be lost in the middle of no where k.. muaksss.. will always have to be there for you one marrr"

its funny how we've known each other for yearsss. but the times that we spent together is sooo little..... yet whenever we face anything or we felt lonely, we'll think of each other right away.. and even though we've got not much to talk about, it just feels so much better to have each other around.. he's just one of those friends who i appreciate a lot a lot even though we're living a total different kinda lifes and he's just one hell of a pain in the ass at times! =p

promised myself wont argue with him ever again. lol :) shhh, he shall not know about this.. hehe :)

rashes! pimples!

2010-04-03T07:33:00.005+08:00

after years of having those rashes on and off on my face..

i've finally decided to come to a conclusion of where about these rashes come from!

1) TEARS! too much of crying leads to serious dehydration.
2) ALCOHOL! drinking even a little cause me so dehydrated especially when i dont drink enough water on the same day or the day after.
3) DRY WEATHER! its just obvious la right? dry leads to cracking of the skin. skin turns flaky and reddish. :(
4) DUST! here not so la. realise this when i was back in vista. horrible terrible living condition back then. so loveee my room over here. so much tidier. so much better.
5) LACK OF H2O! another obvious one la right? over here i drink so much more. but still i HATE drinking water. it makes me feel bloated and fat........ =.=

anyways, just found out that bittergourd helps in preventing pimples :P

anything that are against rashes and pimples, i'm sooo up for them! grrr..

aihss. i havent changed my mind just yet. im still so excited about amsterdam. just that i wish i can go earlier. like now now nowwwwww :( then can come back earlier to study for finals. haihhss..

im having serious trouble TRYING to study. note : TRYING =(

p/s - whoever who saw the pm on yyh's msn, im nottttttttt accepting anyone who can give me lotsa loveee. damn swt. all started with babies are expensive.. gek sei =.=

darn. 2 hours ady. nvm, i dont think many people will get this post. i just need to stay awake and i need to do something other than to click on the nothing-interesting facebook again n again n again.......

bye.

dissertation

2010-03-30T05:39:00.002+08:00

finally am done with my dissertation.

its funny how everyone seemed to hand it up way before the deadline. haha. well 3 days before deadline is quite a lot ady no? :)

my sleeping time is so off lately that it freaks me out. staying up in the middle of the night. so quiet and all.. its just scary :( i never like to stay awake late night to study or do work..

the latest i've slept so far over here was 7sth in the morning and i rmb i was resting my head on the table while i skype.

last nite was 6am. no fun at all. i dont normally initiate to chat in msn. well, not much la. but yest night i practically went thru my whole list to find lotsa people to chat with me. LOL.. super sesat..

next up, finals of the finals! before that, Amsterdam! :) so excited about the trip.. especially after all this non stop heavy workload..

and im soooo thankful i get to spend Good Friday and Easter here in Glasgow! so looking forward..

dont know what plans do you people have. but whatever it is, hope its of remembrance of Him in our life and may we forever keep that deep down in our hearts =)

Be blessed.

p/s - a song to share.

sang this song during worship in cell group the other day. its one of my big time favourite. listening to it again and again just makes me how small i am compared to how BIG and wonderful He is..

this is so good i have to share everywhere!

2010-03-21T08:55:00.002+08:00

YES. i watched this zillion times and i still find it really reallyyyyy good :)

fastest post ever. not even one minute.

=p

time for bed. nightiess :)

full day of chores.. almost..

2010-03-20T04:07:00.007+08:00

after a longggg break, me is doing duooo posttts in a day! =p

went for my LAST/final/terakhir/最后一个 lecture early in the morning today =p

ok terakhir doesnt fit. =.=

anyways. lecture by our french lecturer was as cute as ever. her french accent is so strong that we'll always tend to look at each other and go "HUH? what did she say?" LOL.. but she's undeniably sweeeet la =)

took a few complete class photos at the end of lecture =) so looking forward to see the pic ~~to find the mini-me in the gambar~~ !!

went to the chinese market after that. and bought myself some ~~rubbish~~ stuff to last me for my final 3 months :)

came back home.. unpack stuff and i randomly had the FEEL to do house chores! i know rite? how often will i hv such a FEEL! =.=

naked bed and duvet ;)

yay back in baju :) *comfy comfyyyy*

it has really been some time since i cleared other things other than my study table. so no before photos la k? only AFTER pics =)

daily use stuff =)

arrr. you're all finally nicely arranged.

satisfied owner ;)

this one a bit failure la. thats the best i can do to it ady. still vy messy i know :(

after cleaning and laundry,

cooking time! ;)

mie favourite. LEEKS =) cooked with minced pork and mushroom (",)

made honey dew sago after that for kang lik's bday. we all know how much he hatessss honey dew. hahaha. we're all very evil friends =p

pretty hyperactive today somehow. dono why. even after all the tiring chores, i still had to camwhore a while. teehehehe :)

i even wiped the mirror okay!

my fringe is growing wee bit too fast. thought of keeping it long again. but the length now is sooooo annoying that i sooo have the urge to CUT it! ugh..

OH! i forgot. i've watched alice in wonderland :) didnt like it.. in fact, i almost fell asleep watching it :S not much of 3D effect too. quite disappointing la for me.....

taaa daa. me n samm in the 3D glasses over here. looks different eh? :P

and to end with...

me in my hoodieeee before heading off to lecture today =)

p/s - for those who know, my rashes are better now. at least its not sooooo red nemore and i'm more than thankful for that =) and yes, sorry for being so depressed over it. it was my faceeee kkk! so yeah.

loves. nights! =)

Love

2010-03-19T23:20:00.004+08:00

discussion is so sickening when you cant find info about the things you wanna write.

i dont mind writing really. not at all. but when there is soooo limited info on what im supposed to write, it just turns me super off. *roar*

came across this very meaningful email :) so thought of sharing while waiting for laundry =)

By someone,

WHEN I was a kid, my mum liked to make breakfast food for dinner every now and then.
I remember one night in particular when she had made breakfast after a long, hard day at work.

On that evening so long ago, my mom placed a plate of eggs and sausage and extremely burned biscuits in front of my dad.

I remember waiting to see if anyone noticed! Yet all my dad did was reach for his biscuit, smile at my mum and ask me how my day was at school.

I don't remember what I told him that night, but I do remember watching him smear butter and jelly on that biscuit and eat every bite.

When I got up from the table that evening, I remember hearing my mum apologise to my dad for burning the biscuits. And I'll never forget what he said: "Honey, I love burned biscuits."

Accept each other's fault

Later that night, I went to kiss Daddy good night and I asked him if he really liked his biscuits burned. He wrapped me in his arms and said, "Your Mummy put in a hard day at work today and she's real tired. And besides, a little burnt biscuit never hurt anyone!"

Learn to take the good, the bad, and the ugly parts of your life and lay them at the feet of God.

Because in the end, He's the only One who will be able to live you a relationship where a burnt biscuit isn't a deal-breaker!

I'm not someone who reads forwarded emails and bothers to understand what is written in the email.

But this really touched me :) in a really good way and great timing..

Since i came to Glasgow, i spend a good half an hour or so reading books before i go to bed. Was reading this book and i came to understand relationship is not about MEETING the right person. its more of BEING the right person.

:) its gonna be great to BE the right person rather than waiting to MEET the right one. but meeting someone who eats burnt biscuits and dishes sounds good to me la really *prays hard*

hehehehehe..

God bless :)

Lotsa Loveeee :)

cure to insomnia pls?

2010-03-13T09:14:00.002+08:00

see. many people asked me why do i have sleeping problem.. like quite serious kind..

lets see. during summer, i wake up super early cos of the sun shining right into my room. fine, thats a valid reason.

then as the day gets shorter, im supposed to tidur like a babi with no more excuses.

but i just DONT. and CANT. -_-

if i were to take an average out of a year, im not sure if i've even got 3 months of GOOD sleep really..

so right, yest i couldnt sleep again. toss and turn in my bed for 2 hours plus. darn was it annoying :(

woke up early for class today and was soooo tired thru out the whole day. pretty much in quite a bad mood ady. went and take an hour nap. well it was supposed to be an hour..

until i SUBconsciously decided to off my alarm and continue pigging. so i slept thru till i jumped up at 6pm and realised everyone else made their way to church and thought i was not going since i didnt reply any msges in msn :(

worse is..

i thought no one rang me :( apparently, samm rang me alot of times and i didnt hear A THING. its my room's phone. u noe the KRING KRINGGG KRRINGGG KRRRINNNNGGG kind. the annoying and not nice hp ringtone kind =.="

SIGH. thats how tired i can be after a few nights of lousy sleep. and when im tired, i get so agitated and i get frustrated very very veryyyyy easily.

not teruk enuff? an add-on : carelessness -_-

i walk in and out of my room millions times before..

and last two days, somehowwww i went and bang the edge of the door and had to tahan the pain and not scream cos i was skyping -___-

someone is so right. im so in trouble. cant sleep, careless and emoooo. aihssssss.

rojak sini sana situ

2010-03-08T01:03:00.006+08:00

been so busy the past few days. i dont know when was the last time i feel like i've got NOTHING TO DO sitting in front of my comp and day dream..

now im feeling it. well, ive got things to do. but am just too lazy and thus the ntg-to-do feeling =)

cant possibly list out all the things i've done last week. i have like very bad memory power lately and i feel so tired to recall now.

so again, let the pictures do the talking.

very sedap pretzels that i heart so much =)

cny cookies from someone :)

last saturday samm and i went and help uncle henry n su yin to babysit =) we were so excited the day before. practically planning n imagining how would it be to be alone with baby daniel :)

it was GREAT :) to take care of babies again after such a long time.. ok don get me wrong. i used to ~~play~~ take care of my cousins when they were young..

happily playing with the remote control :)

"why u keep taking pics of me?? ^^"

finally he fell asleep ;)

he was so adorable :) his reaction to everything was so funny.. he can laugh this minute and cry after that.. =.=

oh and he likes to listen to us sing :P hahahaha. he stares at us when we sing. so comel we wanna melt right away =P

OHHH. yes. i cut my hair.

i hv all sorta feedbacks. both good and bad ones. find ALL of them kinda funny. hahaha. i'm alright with the hairstyle myself. its just kinda hard to maintain. so... hmm, will think of what i'll do to it next =.=

just realised time left in glasgow is getting lesser and lesser. dont know how am i gonna leave this place. especially people in New Mercy. but i shall leave that for july =)

and this is the great gift i mentioned in my msn pm =)

probably the best gift i've got so far in glasgow.

p/s - praying very hard.

lotsa love.
nights.

sleep deprived

2010-03-06T11:10:00.002+08:00

been losing sleep again. its 3.18am now.. my computer went on itself after i hibernated it and went to bed for more than an hour..

no kidding. it really turned on itself and i had to get out of bed to see if its REAL. and taa daa, it is and im here now =.=

man do i miss last few weeks. people like me appreciate good DEEP sleep alot. with alot, i really mean ALOT.

i admit i've got something troubling me lately. and its not under my control i know......

i'm so depressed with it and with me losing sleep, even more depressed............ until i dont feel like talking about the "new" exciting cum crazy thing i just did last few days.. even my comp/hp's bluetooth wont allow me to do it =.="

ARGHHHHHHHHH. long day tomoro. plsssss let me sleep. plsssss let me sleeeeeeeeeeep!

first CNY away from home

2010-02-22T06:49:00.016+08:00

sounds pretty sad eh the title? :) but i have to say, this year's CNY is good! =)

except that there are no angpaosss to collect, no CNY cookies to eat, no reunion dinner with family, no meeting up with relatives and friends and etc.. argh :( now the list is getting longer..

ANYWAYSSS,

first, we had biopharm test on the 2nd day of CNY. so yea mugging on cny eve and also the 1st day of cny.

THEN..

few of us went to watch Valentine's Day =) the movie that i was sooooo excited to watch. but it was pretty lousy i would say =( especially when my two cute guys turned out to be GAY =.="

go guess urself WHO AND WHO =.="

dinner at lauders =) slurps! super nice ribs :)

weeeeee :)

AND THENNNN..

thanks to the ALL of the P107-ians for the GREATTTT cny party in Christian Center on the 19th! =) i have to say.. all of us can cook pretty well eh? :)

Each house was in charge of one or two dishes for that night. so our house, D6! was in charge of grilled char siew and tong yuen! =)

thats not even half of the whole 6kg pork that we're supposed to cook!

busy people early in the morning =)

taaa daa =) one of the trays of yummy char siew :)

super comel cum adorable cum chewyyyy tong yuen :)

we actually woke up at 8am in the morning to prepare all this and three of us spent 4 hours on the tong yuen itself. LOL. it was crazyyyyy tiring i would say. but getting all the nice feedback from people, ahhhh :) made all the hard work so worth it!

oh hv i mentioned that the weather in glasgow lately is CRAZY?

it got so coldddd again and that night i almost freezed to death with my cheongsam and heels on the way to the christian center. gulpppp. it was so cold that i literally have to force my fren to talk to meeeee all the time to distract me.

people serving food.

me was not there =) i was in the usher team that night and we took turns to welcome the people at the entrance. and AGAIN, it was freeeezing. this time without jacket lagi. everytime the door opens, i go "BRRRRRRRRRRRRR" =.=" yes, in front of the lecturers and home students. hahaha.

that night, we even have lion dance! LOL..

and lou yee sang! =)

and GAME! ;) peeling and eating mandarin orange by the homestudents and lecturer

and then..

LAST but not least,

CHOIR *-*

19 of us :)

the video is a little too big to be uploaded here.

me is kind enough to upload it on youtube for you guys to laugh =.="

HERE!

housemates :)

after that party,

samm, suemay and i headed off to church at around 10.30pm for all night prayer.

was really really tired but i managed to stay awake all night long without falling asleep. weee! :) but my eyes were so tired at around 2am. thankfully, we had a coffee break and i downed TWO cuppa coffee.

that night was GOOD. really really good :) sth great happened and i praise God for that.

reached home at around 6am and k.o-fied till 2pm the next day. felt so good! ;)

that night, we had another cny party at one of our batchmate's place.

will write another post on that! =)

preview preview.. taa daaaaa..

teeehehehehe =)

oh theres a video for this also!

LOL. thats all for this super mou liu post. im taking a super long break from my essay and so i thought of blogging about this to waste my time. and it works! it just took me more than an hour for this post =.="

ahhh not to forget..

hairstyle copied from cheeserland.

=)

i was soooooo tired after church that i came bk, i din even wash my hair and pommm on the bed. so surprised to see my hair was still curly the next morning.

taa daa. the super chan look before heading out for groceries.

xxx. nights ppl! ;)

its over.. NOT..

2010-02-16T06:37:00.003+08:00

of cos i meant assignments =)

finally biopharm is over.. damn crappy..

the lecturer that i'm fond of sets funny questions =.=" super dupper speechless..

one of them :

What is the cause of cervical cancer in humans?

A) Human papilloma virus

B) Human cervical virus

C) forgot what
D) forgot what

E) MEN

MEN!!! was one of the choice.. ROFL! he must have ran out of ideas of what to put for the last option and the best he could come up with is.. taaa -daaa MEN! =.="

oh btw. batchmates just reminded me he KINDA looks like this guy!

yes bradley cooper.

the yeng-ness. not exactly his features la. smart, yeng, young lecturer *awww*

me and labmate were just talking about it the other day when we saw him randomly.. i was like "ohhh i find n.wheate very hot"..

and her reaction was like *hits my shoulder* "ME TOOOOOOOOO!!! he's soooo hot!"

LOL!

ok enough of him. ugh. even i tak boleh tahan myself. hahaha :)

its 2nd day of CNY! im soooo glad i hear from people back home. especially those who called! =) so glad to have hear all of your voices.. and to know that you all miss me too :) cos i really REALLY miss my family and friendssss..

got back from biopharm and i did everything that has got NOTHING to do with books! fuhhh =) so happy..

headed out. not very productive but had a nice walk =)

came back almost starved to death. cooked myself a healthy and nice dinner. sat down enjoyed dinner with movie and chatting on msn..

had a warmmmm bath. and here i am now blogging :)

i've always had my nails painted since SAM. long nails painted for years. except when theres those microbio or PP2 lab exam.. but since i came here, i kinda just dont give a damn about all of this. until.. today!! ;)

gonna get my nails painted now now nowww. its CNY!! cannot dont paint nails! *weeeeeeee*

p/s - my plan failed today *pout* so the sad.

exams = boredom

2010-02-12T07:51:00.005+08:00

i shouldnt be complaining i know.

but seriously. this is soooooooooooooo boring. especially with the fact that its 3 days away from CNY! (sorry, me no feel for valentine's at all this year)

cries! i really cant wait for biopharm to be over! so many things in the to-do list!

it will be my first time to lead praise and worship in LG right after biopharm. super dupper gan jiong. by God's grace, me will do fine.. i hope..

i wanna watch Valentine's Day (ya i noe i said i no feel for valentine's)!! both mcsteamy and mcdreamy are inside. how to not watch?! =.= grrr.. all the famous people.. argh. must watch must watch!

and baby sitting! haha i know this sounds crazy. but yeahhhhh! baby sitting! :)

thennn the big cny party! =) i cant wait.. but at the same time, kinda freaked out about some stuff =.="

oh shoot. will have to pass up my draft for FYP results on the same day! sighhh..

got so much to do after biopharm. and i've been stucked with all of these for weeeekkkss. few more dayssss to go!

can oneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

p/s - i really dont feel im that stressed out lor. i mean i am la! but not to the extend till having insomnia la. sighhhhh. plsssssss go away all the funny dreams and thoughts. all i can say is im sooooo tired... mentally...... and physically as well.. for sitting here on this chair in front of my comp more than 15 hours per day maybe. how to not get fat u tell me! UGH..

to 'compensate' the previous pic of mine.. nah, an ugly pic of me =)

something new to me, old to everyone else

2010-02-08T06:49:00.006+08:00

i've always been a noob when it comes to comp stuff. ie microsoft EXCEL, microsoft WORD, biograph etc etc. all those sorta things are like aliens to me seriously.

so when i see friends of mine making nice nice edit to their photos, i will go "awwwww".. and thats it. haha. i never even bother to find out how and what kinda programme they used to do such things. cos i know ill never be able to figure them out :)

until today.. hahaha..

my friend got me to try this editting thingy and i got ADDICTED to it. well, not quite addicted yet. but its so fun! :) hahaha. suaku ppl like me finds it fun NOW la :P

so this is what i've got =)

thats done by ME :)

and this is by itu anonymous :)

and i've made this picture collage as well. to compare the edited ones with the ori ones :)

i know i said im busy :) i ammmm. but people keep telling me not to be so stress. cos i've been having sleepless nights again. as far as im concern, im not THAT stress lor really =.= but apparently my kawan says im SUBCONSCIOUSLY very stress =.=" maybe huh?

so ive found a way to de-stress!

and it has got me hooked to it for like an hour plus now! ahhhhhh! :)

xoxo

another visit to burnbank

2010-02-06T21:47:00.002+08:00

this would probably be my second last visit to burnbank elderly home.. the last visit would probably be next month and thats it :( april and may will be the busiest months for me over here.. sigh..

had a great time with them last thursday =)

Nana decided to help them paint their nails this time :) it was great.. some of them want their nails painted but some refused.. one of the pretty po po looked so happy after she got her nails painted RED =) she has got such nice fingers that red looks so good on her =)

there were some new people this time :) one of them was an Asian po po :)

sadly, she speaks in hakka. and for all u know, i am a hakka myself but i can speak no hakka :P haha..

we tried very hard to communicate with her. i tried mandarin at first and she looked kinda confused. so i tried cantonese. and she seemed to ustd littleeee bit of what i said. then i started talking more to her in canto and asked her where is she from..

Me : por por, lei bin tou geh yan ar?
Por Por : !@#$%^&*@#$%^&* tai lok @#$%^&$%^&......
Me : ohhh tai lok yan ar?
Por Por : *smile until cant see eyes and nod nod*

BUT..

samm said she heard something "hiong kong".. =.= thennn, Nana announced that the po po is from Thailand!

and guess what,

i saw her wearing a bangle, and it was engraved with JAPAN on it =.="

question of the day : where is this po po actually from?! =.=

and yesterday was NC's bday celebration =)

we had a great time singing K again this time. well it wasnt arranged but yeah =) hehe..

think i sing this song almost EVERYTIME we go cheong k..

"你我再也不拖不欠"

and there were two songs on the playlist (by my friends) that got my stomach twisted for two secs. just two secs.

"窗外" & "快乐"

okie back to my book and hv gotta work on my presentation tomoro. praying very hard for it to be smooth. the last session, he shoooot so many questions to the presenters and i, as an audience almost fainted. what more this time is ME MYSELF will be shoot-ed! plus.. dengan pandai-nya im doing asthma case when the lecturer who's assessing me specializes on asthma and COPD. *smacks head* shrug..

kinda excited about lotsa things now! =) gotta settle down and turn on my study mode. or else really GG! =.=" hahaha so badly influenced by some people. GG! LOL =P

2010-02-03T05:26:00.002+08:00

had a very meaningful CG session today..

it was short and simple. yet so important.

its about thanksgiving to God.

i was never embarrassed to be known of being afraid of loneliness.. afraid of what the future has for me.. afraid of how tomorrow will be for me.. in short, afraid of everything! LOL

NOT because i think theres nothing wrong with being scared. but because thats ME and i'm thankful enough that i am "wise" enough to realise i shouldnt be afraid.. especially of things that i cant even see or control.. but i guess im not quite "wise" enough just yet to totally not be afraid and worried.

:)

if u noe what i mean.

every morning i wake up unsure of how my day is gonna be. cos im always so emotional. having emotions taking over me is so so sooo wrong i tell u. haha. yea i can laugh about it now when im writing this. but when that particular morning, i wake up all gloomy. ughhh. thats when my whole day will be gone.

all in all, i thank God for every single thing. especially at times when i feel im somehow driven away from Him.. in some ways, He will tend to pull me back and make me realise He's there. always and forever there.

Philippians 4 : 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God

Be blessed people =)

stay positive!

2010-01-28T06:26:00.003+08:00

thats what im reminding myself everyday =)

soooo much to do, so many places to visit.. yet not enough time :(

i wont say i havent been playing alot over here cos i have. and thats undeniable.
and i wouldnt say i havent been working hard over here as well. cos i honestly have :) maybe not hard enough. but.. ada la! *smirks*

let me list down all my due dates :
10 Feb : PharmCare presentation
14 Feb : Biopharm Class Test
19 Feb : FYP Results
1 March : CPP Essay
5 March : PharmCare Essay turnitin
19 March : PharmCare Essay, Role of Pharm Essay
1 April : FYP Final Report

*loudest GULPPP ever* STRESS GILER !!

ugh. i hate to say this. but im still me. im scared! im stressed! im worried!

but..

i know i can do it :) with tears or with joy? we'll see.....

p/s - had a very filling dinner today. chicken with potatoes, beans with minced pork and ABC soup! :)

think i spend soooo much time thinking of what to eat every meal that i'm growing old faster =.=

Skiing in Aviemore, Highland

2010-01-26T06:33:00.010+08:00

woke up at 5am in the morning to get prepared to gather with the others downstairs at 6am..

it was so hard to pull myself out of bed especially when the night before, i only slept for 4 hours :(

but well, i managed to get up and got prepared by 6am =)

checklist :
- beanie
- scarf
- skiing gloves
- ear muffs
- money!!!
- sandwiches
- water

ALL ready to go :)

everyone was pretty on time that morning. and the bus took off at around 6.30am =)

the journey to Aviemore took around 3 hours and we reached the suit renting place around 9.30am =)

each and everyone of us collected our skii boots with numbers on them.. and some went to hire the skiing one piece suit which costs only 10 pounds! =) for student that is..

reached the top at around 10.30am after everyone got their suits and boots on :)

hopped off the bus with our heavy ski boots on. the scenery there was beautiful! ALL white covered with snowwww.

we collected our skis and poles.. while those who did snowboarding, they got their very 'yeng' snowboards! :)

for once, i really don mind anyone of u telling me i look horribly cute. haha. stressing on the HORRIBLY.

=) labmates!

camwhored a while after we got our skis and poles =) they were soooooooo freaking heavy but we just had to drag them here and there to take lotsa nice pics. so excited to have them in hands IN THE BEGINNING.

dragged ourselves with the heavy stuffs to the skiing area. i dono what is it called really. its just further up and i only know the journey to WALK up there with those heavy skis is dreadful. plus we were wearing the huge heavy ski boots. cant even bend. i feel so handicapped for that period of time -.-

we were divided into 4 groups =) and we had this uncle called Bryan as our instructor *fake smiley* =)

there. the shuk shuk behind there =.=

why the fake smiley?

not that he's NOT NICE la. ok la. he's ALRIGHT la. i dont know if its his problem or its just us. we had to line up in a row. and he'll have us go and try what he taught us each time ONE BY ONE while the others are watching =.= SO STRESSFUL ok? plus.. the other group is right opposite watching us :(

so STRESSSSS. had uncountable times of falls. and it took him so long to teach us. when the others head up to the higher part, we're still there in lines waiting for our turns to TRY =.=

anyways, around 1pm.. we took the train and headed up as well =)

in the train =)

we thought we could try to ski on top. who knows, those who were there came out and told us "oh, cannot ski one!".. we were like "HUH?!".. apparently, it was toooo slippery and too steep for us beginners to ski. well some of them managed to ski still =) its so good to just watch them zoooppp pass u here n there. at the same time, feeling so noob standing there trying to move and dont fall. hahaha.

at the top. once again, u can tell me im horribly cute. really. i dont mind the word "cute" anymore. hahahaha.

some of us at the top. BRRRRRRR.

it was soooooooo freezing cold up there. took out my gloves for a while to take pics and i could feel the pain after like what, 10 secs?

went back down to our not-so-comfort zone after a while.

so feel like giving up after falling soooo many times. eh really super dupper discouraging one ok? plus, have i mentioned the skis are heavy?! haha..

of course me did not just give up like that! *hakkk*

i tried again n again. and u noe what sucks? even putting on the skis is HARD. took us more than 10 mins to put them on. when they're on, ski for less than 15 secs and pommm, flat on the ground =( thats when i hv to take off the skis and carry them up again to try again =.=

after two times, i FINALLY managed to ski this time! hahahaha. sx and i were so excited that we keep calling each other's names when we managed to stop at one spot. she tends to go to the right while i tend to senget to the left. =.=

sx and me :)

there! =) this time i don mind u telling me i look very noob. hahaha.

ok i changed my mind. i MIND! grrr.

it was almost to the end when i managed to ski =)

in between, we rested a while after the many trials.. and we decided to have some snow fight and make some snow angels ;)

snow angel in the process

taaa daaa. cannot see also =.=

not sure if its obvious. but there were LOTSAAA ppl that day ;)

all of us had such a great time that when its time to leave, none of us were willing to leave. hahaha. i have so many ppl come telling me "NOT ENUFF TIMEEEEE".. lol.. i felt the same way.. but shrug.. its a one day thingy.. cant expect much ;)

camwhored again before leaving the beautiful place.

love this pic!

with Alfred and his very yeng snowboard =)

Jane =) she skied so well! ;)

went back downhill at around 3.45pm.

returned our ski boots and suits. managed to talk to Carol, the lady who arranged all of this for us :) she was such a niceeee sweet lady. she actually told me that she saw me skiing there thru live webcam. i laughed and i thought she was kidding. until she told "its true. really.. i saw you".. hahaha. how cool is that. theres actually three (if im not wrong) webbies around the place. and she gets to see the whole place thru some website. SO YENG kan? ;)

thats how my name is to Carol or rather, all the angmohs =.=

all the 32 of us! with Stuart right behind there in blue ;)

reached our halls at around 7.30pm.

everyone was so tired. and we were warned about muscle aches the next day. haha how true.

in fact, i ady felt the pain when i got on the bus. my hands were trembling. sigh. dai sei i know. for ppl who don exercise AT ALL like me :(

today the pain got worse. i dont rmb hurting my knee but right now, my right knee hurts pretty badly. even when i walk, i can feel its weak and i cant totally step my right leg down :(

and whats worse! i had my second FALL today :( no snow, no rain. don ask me how and why. i just lost balance and fell. and hit my right knee. yes AGAIN :(

anyway, im really really glad the skiing trip turned out great and everything was nice =) almost perfect weather with light snow :)

thanks to those who prayed =)

Be blessed everyone! *hugs*

awesome sunday =)

2010-01-25T05:23:00.003+08:00

super ultra mega tiring weekend..

had a greattt women's conference in partick on saturday. speaker, Ps Susan was beyond great. woke up at 7am for it and it was sooo worth it.

think her words touched all of our hearts. at least i think it touched mine a lot =) now i know what i want. its just that its up to me now.. to wait and wait upon Him and go for it =)

as for today, Sunday :) 24th Jan!

it was our skiing trip!

its not exactly my first time organizing a trip. but its crazy to organise one i would say. plus.. there were 32 of us! BUTTT.. when it turns out to be so smooth and so well, it just felt so good. having to make people around you happy.. thats one of the many ways to make me smile from my heart :)

soweee but no pics yet.

got back at 7sth and im really really tired. but skiing was soooo much fun! the only complaint was NOT ENUFF TIME to hv more fun :) had many falls. but almost to the end, i got to ski and it was GREATTT ;)

hands and legs are trembling now. badddd muscle ache. ouch :(

will update ALL about it when i get the pics ;)

just this one pic ;) ter-zoomed the cam. hahaha ;)

all in all, im not as scared as i used to be nemore. haha good news for those friends who tak boleh tahan me. but bad news. i never felt i needed a man more than ever. the skis are so FRIGGING heavy!! ok jk. it would be great if theres a huge strong incredible hulk to help me but HAK! i went thru all of it. and im safe n sound here now!

except for the slight twist of my right wrist :(

ok. mask time! and off to bed. first day of class tmr for my FINAL sem.. sien-ness! aihs. xoxooo ;)

for myself..

2010-01-18T08:39:00.005+08:00

so often, i talk about how i feel or whats in mind lately.. and i always ALWAYS forgot to update about all the great things i experienced and did over here..

in fact, i even tot of deleting my blog for like a few times.. even lately..... the feeling just hit me again................

until today, a fren of mine told me that she's worried that she might forget the the things she has done and the great places she went over here in UK in the future..

it suddenly struck me that, with how bad my memory is lately.. i think i would forget too! :(

i dont know why. but my memory power is so charrr now that i can forget my next sentence in like less than 3 secs =.= i should probably look back at those pics and see if i can recall about what happened on those special events so that i can actually blog about them again..

:)

its monday again tmr. another week of lab and thats when new semester @ FINAL semester starts.............

really miss having someone so close to talk to about every single good or bad thing in life...

so cute eh?

pftttt..

no one says life is easy

2010-01-11T07:26:00.004+08:00

when life is tough,

that is when u started to think back how easy life used to be during the good old days..

i've gotta admit how spoilt i am all my life. with people who love me so much.. always giving me the best of the best.. with great friends who spoilt me so much and always treating me as the youngest of all..

so when things get a lil messed up, i cant seem to take them. cos life has always been so smooth for me. well, compared to other people.

as u get older, u tend to see more things in life and get to know more people and their lifes. i never had the chance to REALLY realise how fortunate i am actually. until now.. here.. where i am right now..

:(

this year i didnt say "oooo im 22 now!". ppl who knows me well will know.. every year, one month after my bday when its a NEW year, i will go telling everyone "im one year older now!!"

this year, not at all.

the idea of it just gives me the twist in my tummy.

*gulp*..

more challenges coming.. not sure how but im sure i can get through all of them with His strength.

no past, no future

2010-01-06T06:57:00.003+08:00

its funny how i dont think much about the past nor the future now.

well, the past comes around from time to time. but its starting to fade. i only realised that when someone asked me a question today.

as for the future, i just dont seem to have anything in mind.

a close friend once told me this.. he said "its the past who made us who we are today. to live happily or not, its all in ur hands. dont cry over the past or worry about the future, appreciate what you have around you now"

so true. sometimes its hard to believe words like that come out from him. honestly. hahaha..

anyway..

only one solid thought in mind. cant wait to graduate officially as a pharmacist!

but what do i do with the degree? i have no idea at all now.

ask me if i wanna work. NO.
ask me where would i wanna be placed. I DONT KNOW.
ask me do i even wanna work in the hospital. NO.
ask me all the WHAT IF questions and i'll give u that stare. i seriously dont know.

i wont believe what i dont think is right anymore.

my wild and crazy heart has taken over my clear and peaceful mind for some time. its time for my MIND to take over now.

its ady the 5th. hope its not too late for me to complete my 2010 resolutions lahhhh.

haha an african friend of mine came asking "i realise all of u like to end sentences with "LA".. what does that mean?"

SO CUTE. some of them even followed us using the LA word ady now. hurrayyy!! =)

funny unwalkable walk

2009-12-31T05:54:00.004+08:00

I've deleted that very annoying song from my blog. haha. i mean not the song itself that is annoying. i just realise how annoying it is to play straight whenever i visit my own blog. then i thought it must have annoyed u guys a lot. so *chiu!* its GONE! :P

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its a bad bad day to actually walk to Aldi to do some groceries shopping today..

looked out today and it was raining.. then i thought ok maybe later it will stop..

looked out again after an hour or so, oooo its sunny finally!

called up samm and off we went.

walked happily till we reach one part where the whole floor was covered with ICE =.= it was so slippery i cant even take one step forward. i was practically sliding here and there. grabbed so tightly to samm. it felt so much like skating. and for all u know, i CANT skate. AT ALL. cos im someone who's so freaking scared of falling down... it took us forever to reach the end of the short straight road........ seriously.. i dont know to laugh or to cry when i walk on that road for that few minutes.. LOL..

ooo i found something i shouldnt! =.=

THIS!

=( soooooo pretty the dresses there! soooo love ALL OF THEM!!! i just miss wearing pretty dresses back in KL so so so much!

holidays ending real soon. and im soooo reluctant to start my research lab sessions on the 5th. first its my supervisor's face that i dread to see. then its the stuffs that i'll be doing. well i dono what are they exactly. but i just have the feeling that i wont like them.

plus. when january comes, february follows! which means may gets nearer n nearer! =.=

i realise im like the silliest girl ever. when things are good and going on smoothly, i tend to screw things up and make them bad. i have the tendency to make things bad so that ill be prepared for them to get worse and worst.

its new year eve tomorrow =) time really flies. its new year eve again. last year's new year eve marked a big change in my life. this year's too =)

cos 2010 will be a great great year for everyone :) keeping all my loved ones in prayers :)

shud start thinking of your new year resolution(s) if u havent been doing so! =) i havent myself.. :P

to end with..

an emo pic of me. hahaha. credits to doreen :)

p/s - im getting more n more obsessed of series. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =X ciaos!

whiteeee xmas!

2009-12-22T08:14:00.003+08:00

back from dublin and belfast =)

relaxing trip it was. but the weather was soooo crazy cold. we din expect the sudden weather change but yeah, it did =.=

we were soooo disappointed when we heard that it snowed in glasgow the day after we reached ireland.. but on the same night, it snowed in Dublin! hak!! :P hehe..

first experience of snow.. one word = SUAKU.. hahaha

we werent even sure if it was snow. until we confirmed it was WHITE. then we were like "SNOW ITS SNOWWWW" :P

haha happy stuff :)

played games till late night yest and had to wake up at 4.30am to catch the flight back to glasgow. crazy tired. but games were of so much fun. LOL..

the cold weather is driving me crazy. its the cold itself and the way its making me hungry ALL the time. seriously, ALLLLL the time.

i had big portion of lunch at 2pm+ and i got hungry at 5pm+. had lunch at 6pm+ and i ate NON STOP after that.

ben & jerry's first... continued with kit kat. and then a pack of mccoy's. and now im here.. trying to finish typing this asap before i grab the skittles next to me now =.=

:) busy day tmr. its snowing and its colddddddddddd. gotta stock up with FOOOOODDD and of cos, some *ehem* necessities.. if u noe wat i mean :P

oh not to forget, xmas pressie for xmas party =) n lotsa xmas cards to write..... =.= posted some home ady but i guess they will only reach nxt year mayb? :(

to end with..

pls tell me i dont look like a walking mushroom :( thankiu..

and this..

is the biggest 'o che' i've ever gotten since god knows how long ago.. this was one week after.. and now (2 weeks plus), lot better but its still 'o che'....... =(

nights ppl! xxx..

wat? a year older?

2009-12-13T06:51:00.009+08:00

yes. me is officially one year older and finally stepping into the adulthood.

21.

dont rmb how i spent my sweet 16 honestly. but i definitely will rmb my sweet 21st birthday! =)

with so many wishes from friends all over the world. seriously. from home, UK, singapore, australia and even india. LOL =) very very bigggg thank you everyone :)

plus..

the celebration in glasgow itself was superb. hehe =)

lets start with the 12am surprise as usual. for everyone's bday, we normally make it quite a big thing. but for mine.. yes, EXAM the next morning. who would even bother to choi me at all la rite?

BUT..

hsemates were so sweettt. haha. sweet enuff to make me a funny, hard microwave cake to surprise me sharp at 12am when me n samm were doing past years together :)

samm even made me this special thread of alphabets written..

so sweeet of her =)

went for exam at 10am and then they realised the hall was not big enough for the whole batch. silly stuff. then less than 20 of us had to go to some small room to sit for the exam. super no exam feel! but 'the' cute guy was there! *happy*

eh. very happy ok? he was not supposed to be there one. but he sumhow a bit sesat. end up there :P

anyways!

after exam, went on a date with samm.

had lunch in Rumours Kopitiam.

GF :)

me with ALL the food *slurps*!

after lunch, went back to SIBS for our feedback. it was a waste of time to be there honestly. cos the lecturers were sooooooo super fei. they just wont give us the answers to the questions STRAIGHT. but ok la, in the end, they did la. and im happy with my results =) but of cos, for the MCQ part only *pout*

after feedback,

headed home. GF came over to pui me again :) she was actually with me the whole day almost. hahaha. very very cute. watched few episodes of friends together. had a few good laughs.

got myself prepared for dinner at Loon Fung after that =)

im obviously too lazy to upload more pics. they're all on facebook anyway =)

just to cut things short, we had good food there, good time singing, some had good time mahjung-ing as well =) had lotsa laughs.. awesome-ness! =)

headed off to Garage after that.

and that night was when i realised sth. WE realised i shud say. lol. my tolerance to alcohol has built up! *happy* i would normally turn red after 1 cup of vodka mix. that night.. ray got me 2 shots of sourz and 2 vodka mix.. and i was still alright :) a lil hot.. but very sober =) eh very big accomplishment for me ok? =.=

the girlssss =)

the bunch who went clubbing :)

night ended at 3am =)

as for pressies,

the one i appreciate most =) cute kan? :) from the 3 cute people back home :P hahaha..

pressie from the bunch. FCUK brush kit =)

the pressie from Brisbane from ye haau =)

the funny looking polar bear from calvin =)

and the pretty card he drawn =)

the nice baju from LG =)

and ugh. i cant find the two cute cartoons vkee drawn for me now =.=

all in all, blessed birthday i had! =)

thanks everyone who made this very birthday of mine soooooo memorable! ;)

and 2010 is coming so soon =) hmmm, what plans do i have for this new year eh? *scratch head*

unofficial holidays!

2009-12-09T08:10:00.004+08:00

think most of you should know by now, had my DDS paper on my birthday yesterday =)

and whats with the smiley eh? :) cossssss..

it marks the start of my UNOFFICIAL holidays! lol.. well next week then its official. since this week there's only one class.. so yeah, its holidays ady *weeee*

i had a great time yesterday =) will probably talk about it only in my next post =)

ANYWAYS,

pic of one of the cutest thing i've ever seen ;) presenting to you.. someone's KangKung! =)
[sadly, not mine *pout*]

anyway, this post is silly. hahaha. just desperately wants my blog to feel 'loved' before i head off to my bed =)

din really had a good sleep yest. somehow somewhat i think i sprained my neck =( so painful nowww.. and early morning someone buzzed and woke me up. its not like i was the one who answered the door, but STILL.... haihs.. but it was a 'good buzz' though =) hahaha. shall update in my next post (again..)

wasted whole day doing nothing today. but it felt so good. wasting time never felt better. hehehe =) lets see.. tomoro's highlight would be........ *drums roll*

go ALDI buy some groceries alone (yes, somehow i feel like being alone tomoro)
and probably join hsemates for shopping or either that, go shop shop or Borders ALONE =)
and..........

watch FRIENDS! *jumps around*

p/s - planning is good. like what Jace shared today, 3 weeks time to plan whats for next year. never once berjaya to do it before. but everything has its first time =) we shall seeeee about it :)

*hugs*

of work!

2009-12-01T06:32:00.006+08:00

last thursday, got a sms from city g8.. was pretty excited about it =) got work on friday!

means finally money is coming in ! :)

so off i went for work on friday. from 4pm to 12am supposedly. but things ended early, thank God!!

it was sooooo freaking tiring.

the ironic thing was.. the event i worked at was the Strathclyde Fire & Rescue Annual Dinner.. =.= thinking of how those people wanna kill us for always triggering the fire alarm for nothing.. i serve those ppl nicely on behalf of those who triggered the fire alarm *EHEM* :P

and naive me thought there would be lotsa cute firemen around. cos u know.. everytime they come when there's fire alarm, almost 80% of them are cuteeeee one! trust me. im not exaggerating here. they really are.

but sadly. i see banyak uncle and auntie walking in :( but of the two tables that i was in charged of pouring wine, theres one cute guy! =) so happieee. haha.

practically, my work is to ask "would you like red/white wine sir/madam/miss?"

then start taking plates of food and serve the guests.

then when they're done, clear their dirty plates. *uek* believe me. its better than those in msia seriously. u noe, those fish bones, those chicken bones and skin. here tak ada one. so thankful!

u may think "EH quite easy mar"..

but pls ar. those plates are so freaking heavy and HOT. they got those food ready earlier and throw the whole plate into some oven and taa daa, serve them hot =.=

plus, the dishes that night were one starter, then soup, then another starter, then main course, then dessert! then only tea/coffee. which i didnt do. cos i served the tablets instead :D

before starting work :)

sadly toilet is the only place we can camwhore :(

i like the deco =) star shaped balloons. and candles on the table.

but there were seriously so many things on the table lor wei! why la so ma fan i also tak tau =.=

oh btw. i was not supposed to even take out my phone at all that night. thats why the pics above very the cacated. i couldnt even see what i was taking. i just take out my phone and snap watever i get only :P

came back at almost 11pm that night and then only get to eat my dinner. starved till hands were shaking.

but anyway, after that day.. i never had proper meal till this afternoon :)

samm came over and cooked this with me =)

so thats about it. about me working for the first time as a waitress =.= not very fun. but i would say its a good experience :) AND sadly it was my 2nd day of the "TIME" of the month. made things worse. horrible backache till today.

DDS ar DDS.

nvm. i wanna go watch my 'born rich' now. and play some silly games. and get some sleep tonight..

addiction

2009-11-29T00:34:00.003+08:00

you know how you always feel you'll live better with 'something' in your life?

like you cant live without it.. and no matter how you know it is doing so much harm in your life.. still, u stick to the thought that u MUST have it in life or else, u cant live..

think its time to focus on the long term benefit than to keep thinking of how it is helping you to go through each and every single day.. cos at the end of the day, when things accumulate more and more.. all you get is a horrible, painful experience that you cant even imagine..

withdrawal symptoms may suck big time. involves lotsa struggle, lotsa pain and tears, lotsa giving up and falling back in..

(if u dono how horrible withdrawal can be, go google/youtube it!)

but there will be a day of recovery. thats for sure. and when that day comes, you come clean.. and the next thing u know.. you're all good living a brand new life..

ppl make sooo many mistakes in life sometimes. only family will forgive you readily at all times.

beautiful quotes from OTH

2009-11-24T04:47:00.009+08:00

“Remember tonight, for it is the beginning of always.
A promise. Like a reward for persisting through life so long alone.
A belief in each other and the possibility of love.
A decision to ignore, simply rise above the pain of the past.
A covenant, which at once binds two souls and yet severs prior ties.
A celebration of the chance taken and the challenge that lies ahead.
For two will always be stronger than one, like a team braced against the tempest civil world.
And love will always be the guiding force in our lives.
For tonight is more formality.
Only an announcement to the world of feelings long held.
Promises made long ago.
In the sacred spaces of our hearts.”

-Lucas Scott

“Every song has a coda, a final movement.
Whether it fades out or crashes away.
Every song ends.
Is there any reason not to enjoy the music?”
-Peyton Sawyer

I wanted you to fight for me!

I wanted you to say there is no one else that you could ever be with and that you would rather be alone than without me.

I wanted the Lucas Scott from the beach that night;

telling the world that he's the one for me.

-Brooke Davis

You told me to fight for you and I did. But you never fought for me.

-Lucas Scott

At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world.

Some are running scared.

Some are coming home.

Some tell lies to make it through the day.

Others are just not facing the truth.

Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil.

Six billion people in the world, six billion souls. And sometimes... all you need is one.

-Peyton Sawyer

Sometimes i wonder if anything's absolute anymore. Is There Still right and wrong?
Good and bad? Truth and lies?
Or is everything negotiable,left to interpretation, grey.
Sometimes we're forced to bend the truth, transform it,
cause we're faced with things that are not of our own making.
And sometimes things simply catch up to us.
-Lucas Scott

Truth is still absolute. Believe that.
Even when that truth is hard and cold, and more painful than you've ever imagined.
And even when truth is more cruel than any lie.
-Lucas Scott

There comes a time when every life goes off course.
In this desperate moment you must choose your direction.
Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are?
Or will you label yourself?
Will you be honored by your choice?
Or will you embrace your new path?
Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.
-Lucas Scott

-ADDING in some from Grey's which i find very meaningful as well-

I do love you. Don't you see?
You're the love of my life, I can't leave you. But you constantly leave me.
So I'm asking you please end it because I'm in it.
Put me out of my misery.”
-Dr. Derek Shepherd

"The unexpected is what changes our life”

-Meredith Grey

“At some point, you have to make a decision.
Boundaries don’t keep other people out, they fence you in.
Life is messy, that’s how we’re made.
So you can waste your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them.
But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross.
Here’s what I know.
If you’re willing to throw caution to the wind and take a chance,
the view from the other side… is spectacular.”
-Meredith Grey

5 mins break post

2009-11-21T06:41:00.003+08:00

taking a break after facing my intro work for more than 3 hours now..........

so many pages loaded.. so many journals stacked.. so much info.. but i just cant seem to extract much info from the piles of papers! =(

im finally at the final part of intro.. and i was so excited to finish it by this weekend.. :( but now i doubt myself......... realise this is the hardest part.. and im struggling worse than 2 weeks ago.. sigh...........

slightly disappointed now. at some point of time, the feeling of being 'used' tend to come about.. i dont know.. its hurtful at times.. but think i've learnt to be slightly smarter now.. ignore the funny feeling and continue with my work and live my own happy life in this small cozy room by myself :)

=) so yeap. gonna continue a bittttt more on work. and i shall waaaa laaa! watch some comedy and have some silly laughs by myself :)

ARGH. who says sem 7 is free and easy! whooooooooooooooo :(

if u read this..

2009-11-16T04:12:00.005+08:00

i hope you're in love ;)

at this age, its so easy to just fall in love.. and then get hurt and then fall out of love.. and then fall all over in love again.. and the cycle goes on and on and on..

its been some time since i have felt the ease to just fall in love and fall out of love.. lol.. or should i say, those are not even love.. not at all..... at least to me? :)

im sure many of us share with our friends about love, relationship and marriage..

and many times, you would see the sparkle in a girl's eyes when she talked about HER guy.. lately it made me smile to see someone like that =) its just really really sweet to see someone in love.. especially someone close to you :)

and by in love, i dont mean those *snap* and its ON that kinda feeling.. its those that people can see she really sees him as her future.. and vice versa..

so if u're reading this, i really hope that you're in love :) cos me is very happy to see people happily in love lately =)

a lot of times, its not about whether the promise is made or not.. its about how one would REALLY never let go no matter what happens. promises are rubbish.. just like how someone told me before that celebrating anniversary is not something wise to do.. to a certain extent, i have to admit that its kinda true..

:) (i dont know how to put the "<" and "3" love over here.. so a smiley will do)

saw this cute image which kinda contradicts with the content of this post..

hehe ;) so cute.. but that fella is a JERK eh? :P

okay. back to my roster! *roar*

max anger!

2009-11-13T06:29:00.003+08:00

dono when was the last time that i was so angry like today.

even after all the very heart breaking days i've gone through, i was not as mad as i was today! seriously..

i guess those days i was just SAD and disappointed mainly. this time, its really pure anger and NOTHING ELSE! and u know why.. you'll only be sad and disappointed over people u REALLY care and ANGRY over people who u dont give a damn. this is what i realise now.

a lot of ppl questioned me why do i write things out in this way and why not just confront that person.. i tot of confronting.. and u dont know how much i WANNA confront and SCOLD all i want so that that fella will REALISEEEE how annoying and irritating and tao ren yan she/he is to soooo many people!

but after calming down and some deep thinking, confronting is not a very good solution. in fact, theres no solution to this. all i can do is just dont care and DONT CARE. all this will be over SOON i tell myself. very very soon. and deep down, i know PEOPLE knows.

from all of this, all i can say is.. we'll only realise who are our real friends after some time and who are just plain PAIN IN THE ASS!

"if you dont know how to talk, you should probably just shut up!"

i can be even more harsh. but no.. if that day ever comes, its gonna be a face to face kinda thing i promise.

and for everyone's information, i dont normally scold people or get soooo mad at people. it happened tooooo many times and im losing my patience!

you're soooooooooooooooooooooo freaking annoying! 看你前面，恨你后面！

lack of motivation

2009-11-12T06:58:00.003+08:00

was very semangat last week to do my worksss yang berlambak lambak banyak..

the very motivated feel seem to fall gradually after days and right now, this minute, i'm of 0.000001% motivation.......................

its just REAL tiring to have try and try and try to do.. yet the outcome is so minute... spent like 3 hours trying to work on something, and the outcome is like almost nothing.......

its just terribly depressing..

upcoming pharmcare presentation next week. and all i can say is there are lotsa rubbish on my slides.. and i have no idea what and how am i gonna present on that day honestly..

just wanna get it over and done with. but wait. i still have my intro......... =.= life sux..........

whats worse..

after handing in my intro, i have a 50% exam! which i dont rmb much of the lectures that i've attended for that subject =.=

and whats 'better'.. it falls on my BIRTHDAY. and whats EVEN 'better'.. feedback on the same day! =.="

AHHHHHHHHHHHH! i know i can do this! i think i've gone thru worse ! yeapppp. i can!

oh guess what.. after all the bodoh-ness of keep cutting my own finger,

today i BURNT my two fingers instead =.= was just going to taste the potatoes that i was cooking. the sauce and a piece of potato eventually slipped off my spoon and spilled on my fingers............. it was freaking hot but i tot it was nothing... mana tau, later on hsemate saw they were swollen and gave me THAT like-that-also-can-get-swollen?!? look....

swt. swt. swt. i hv to agree how mum always say my hands are like my legs >.<

this is the tree right outside my window =) its one of the few which havent gone botak yet ^^

so pink. so pretty.

zero degrees!

2009-11-08T08:10:00.005+08:00

winter's coming and i felt like i didnt really experience autumn enough..

its like i just realised its autumn. then here comes winter =.= i guess i'm always slow in realising things.. as usual..

its getting REAL cold over here. window can be kept close at all time. for a person who loves to live in cold sooo much, last week marks the first time of me turning on the heater..

so much so.. im still in short pants and tank top in my room at times *teeehehehe*

BUT.. i've got myself a PJ two months back i think? and last few days i finally decided to wear it to SLEEP! ;)

got sheeeeeps!

happy wappy girl in her new PJs =)

so happily camwhoring alone in my room in my new PJs.. someone went knocking on my door and asked to head out for a drink in a Jazz bar.. had to take them off after wearing for like what, 10 mins? :(

guess what!

im now in my PJs again! traaa laaa laaa ;) brrrrrr. cold!

bought lotsa crisps, chocs and cookies to ~~suicide~~ prevent myself from getting hypo in the coming chilly daysss.. McCoy's is soooooooooooooooooooo GOOD! better than sensations! better than walkers! better than any other crisps! =)

oh. and i finally watched The Proposal ;)

was too stressed out yesterday that i feel like i really cant do anything anymore.. so i went and grab a tub of Ben & Jerry's.. moved my laptop near to my bed.. wrapped myself in my duvet.. and enjoyed the comedy with my best friend, Ben & Jerry's =)

i personally love this movie quite a lot! out of 10, i would give it an 8!! ;)

as for my title, BBC says it will be 0 degrees later at 6am. mixed feelings of HURRAY and OH-NO............... here comes the days that i'll be wrapping myself into a fat bak zhang!

p/s - i almost chopped off my own thumb just now. when i told samm about it, her first reaction was like "AGAIN?!?!?!?".. LOL. thankfully it kena my nail only this time =)

dont worry mama, the thumb is good. and ying is good ;)

ring finger-less

2009-11-05T03:36:00.002+08:00

very sad.

was slicing capsicum, ended up slicing my own finger :(

thankfully it wasn't as deep as i thought it would be. cos it was darn painful :`(

i shall be well disciplined! intro ar intro.. INTRO ARRRR INTRO! (as though this helps)

emo-ness. been having nightmares for 3 nights. end up with headache every single morning. argh..

gonna bathe now and be productive! *hakkkkk* if i can..............

funny 'pichas' from msn

2009-10-30T07:24:00.004+08:00

found these few pics in My Pictures :)

proof of funny stuffs my comel friends can say to me or do with me :)

#1 (she was a bit bit drunk that night) LOL!! sorry dodo.. its not something bad right u love me? :) just wanted to remind u that u confessed to me before :P wahahahha..

#2 last year?

#3 silly jason with his silly personal message.

#4 this is the latest. and the most guo fen one. STEAL my pic summore! dono how he did it. pengsan!

slightly excited yet worried about tomorrow's party. and also nottingham one day trip. its gonna be a tiring weekend. i need REST. and time for myself to slowly do my things. i sooooo love the long weekend i had last week!

i think im saying this too often. i miss home! =.= and my hair is not growing as fast as i want it to be. and im gaining weight. and im not sleepy now when im supposed to be!!! =(

banyak complaints! :) soooo woon huey ying *weeeeee*

byez! wish me luck tmr..

its not a game

2009-10-27T22:48:00.001+08:00

i dont play 'hard to get'

i play "you're not getting it"

p/s - i miss playing kite.

campur aduk

2009-10-27T06:25:00.004+08:00

photos are my reminder of what to blog about lately..

a lot of times i wanna blog about that particular thing and i wont remember about it the next hour..

=) so this post shall be a very rojak post..

lets start with my first pic.. lets seeee..

cooked CURRY BEE HOON the other day!

for me, it tasted alright. haha.. vy spicy =) weird ingredients though.. chicken, mushroom, bee hoon and sausages! hahahahahaha :P

day before yest, i got kinda sien.. i mean, im always sien la.. that is when i'll go crazy doing things i DONT DARE to do myself..

=) i cut my own hair. not front hair. but the back hair =) woohooooo

thats quite a lot of hair eh? but still, my hair is still very the thick now =.=

went and watch "The Spartans" with samm on saturday. super dupper lame movie. i didnt like it at all to be honest. lol. was so tired that we both took a nap at her place. was really tired. but just couldnt fall asleep. it got so dark after that and the wind was blowing super super strongly. was kinda scared.. lagi cannot sleep after that. hahaha =.=

in the evening, i got this..

From someone who told me to "shhhh" about these two cute delicious cupcakes =) so touched! ;)

Then after a while, samm called.. and gave me this..

a cup of ice blended coffee =)

i felt so LOVED for that few minutes =)

As for Sunday,

few of my batchmates organized Deepavali open house at their place..

food was REAL good. muttons especially! *slurps* both samm and i sat down obediently keep eating n eating in our tight cheongsams! hahahaha..

the night before, i told her to skype with me to show me how to sew this piece of thing cos it was kinda loose for me.. seriously i am a big time noob when it comes to sewing.. =.=

and it took me more than an hour to sew that thing cos i made the silliest mistake ever and i had to RE-DO the whole thing.. and i pricked my own fingers for more than 10 times! argh.. prick till my thumb bleed summore.. super cacated -.-

anyways,

at night, we got someone knocking on our door and gave us this..

homemade tiramisu !

very very nice! =) gonna learn it and make it for mummy one day! weeee~

to end with,

for special you! =) i was soooo happy u told me u love it! =)

and the left solo one is for myself =)

so that makes ME + you and you ;)

ME : "I'm coldddd. I want a hug also plz?"

=( havent been sleeping well lately. plus been having vy bad headache again lately. think its the table lamp. but without it, its a bit too dark to study. argh!

STRESS! gotta work on my intro soon and pharm care presentation coming up as well. STRESS giler. who says sem 7 is free? ugh..

why wedding ring on 4th finger?

2009-10-26T19:51:00.001+08:00

thought this is really cool. so am sharing here =)

and also in facebook ;)

grapes

2009-10-23T06:45:00.003+08:00

i rmb someone used to say girls' toes somewhat looks like "grapes"..

now mine are like peeling grapes :( rotten grapes soon if this continues..

if vaseline is not working, what's next? :(

finally its friday tmr. massive headache now. argh.

magical

2009-10-21T05:41:00.003+08:00

u know there are times when you were thinking of something, and someone else actually shared the same thing as you and talked about it at the same time..

i would used to think.. "wah, so ngam one!"

now.. all i would say is.. its God.. it really is.. and i cant be more thankful to be where i am today..

this is probably obvious to some people.

its actually today's LG when Chris shared about LOVE.. as much as i told myself all of those points, its different to hear it from someone else sometimes.. someone older, someone who knows more.. especially more about God and God's will for each and every one of us..

even samm told me at the end of the night, "hmm how come Chris will talk about this one ar tonight?" i believe its not by coincidence or arranged by themselves? at least i would like to think its something from God that im hearing from..

its not gonna take one day for me to poof and transform into a different person the next morning.. it might take longer than what i expect.. or hopefully shorter? :)

but let it all flows by God's will..

OH!

i finally took the first step to redecorate my room today. haha sounds like a huge thing to do. but its actually just sticking a piece of wrapping paper on the wall. and it took me weeks to actually move and DO it. hahaha :)

the VVIPs in my life =)

my fren printed this photo out of no where and gave it to me. so nice of him ;) haha..

and this too ;) well he wanted to print another one.. but stopped him from doing so and so i chose this! =)

cant wait for parents to be back from taiwan.. so that i can show them my 'new' wall ;)
gonna stick more notes on it though =) cant wait for it to look prettier..

sth frustrating though. i dono why my supervisor is not replying my mail and im feeling vy lost in my research project! i shud prob consider spamming in mailbox soon! *roar*!

p/s - its a good day despite all the bad things happening.. proud to say i am really happy today although it was just another ordinary Tuesday :)

CHEERS to Tuesday! ;)

my first time

2009-10-19T06:10:00.005+08:00

getting drunk..

thankfully it was at home..

it was yeanleeng's 22nd birthday! =)

the night started with dinner at Kokuryo, a Korean restaurant :)

me with the birthday girl ;)

whole bunch of us in the smallest korean restaurant i've ever seen =.=

we were kinda early for club.. so we went to yvonne's place to hang out for a while =)

liked her place a lot. huge kitchen. huge bedroom with own private toilet! i know im very hang fuk to stay in such nice place ady. but aiyo! she's even more hang fuk!!! =.= hehe..

so we played some games there. so much laughter with ash sitting beside me. LOL.. it was plain farnie and i hv to say, pretty fun! ;) although we all tot the game was pretty sien.. hahahaha :P

at around 11pm we headed off to Karbon =)

and again, on the way someone gave me a leaflet on Thursday night at Karbon.. lol.. at first i read it as DiscoKids and i almost fainted.. =.= but thankfully its just the NAME. hahaha..

in the club.

housemates =)

danced for almost 3 hours non stop.. we practically got pushed here and there cos it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo crowded.. and we met a pien tai negro over there.. stroke my back and poured liquor over my pretty dress when i sat down on the couch for less than 5 seconds!

anywayssssss, lets not talk about the not-so-nice part of clubbing experience..

i tot i improved! drank two cups of vodka + red bull.. and one shot of tequilla by the guys.. and i was still pretty sober after that.. think its becos i never stopped dancing and sweating? i wonder if my theory is correct. hahaha but i THINK so la.. =.=

headed home around 2am accompanied by the guys (thankfully).. and we were all too semangat that we dont feel sleepy at all. haha.. so fellow neighbours suggested to continue drinking and so they brought few bottles of beer, one bottle of vodka lemonade and a bottle of brandy *faint*

didnt expect myself to get drunk that night cos i always know my own limit. when i turn into a tomato, i will just stop drinking..

but shrug, every thing has its own first time. lol.. so we played games and i kept drinking.. had a cup of vodka and two cups of brandy.. then that was when i k.o-fied big time...................

that was after 3/4 cup of vodka ONLY..

dono what were we doing =.=

things got a bit out of control after that. hahaha. i totally 'fainted' on the floor.. and thats all i rmb.. =.=

story below was told by my two housemates who jaga-ed me the whole night =.= paisehnya..

i said "i wanna shh shh!".. then one of them helped me to the toilet.. then after a while, she came in and saw me sitting on the toilet's floor crying.........

then she helped me back to the living room. i rmb this part. cos i heard someone else crying besides me.. but at that time i didnt know who it was. lol.. then i started vomitting =.= ewwww i know..

cried and cried.. they brought me to my room.. continue vomitting and crying.. all i rmb was my vision was so blur and i really couldnt stand or sit at all.. and that they said to me "its gonna be okay" and "okay okay, just tonight k. no more crying tomoro".. (i think they know what happened)

vomitting part was the worst.. its like something is stucked in there forever and i cant get it out.. dahlah cannot sit.. lie down also susah.. =.=

so yeah. that was my first experience of getting drunk. awful feeling. the next morning i still had the hangover effect. a lil dizzy and the vomitting feeling was there for the whole day =.= and at night, we even went to chan sing's very own cocktail party summore =.=

-to be continued-

jap

2009-10-19T00:49:00.002+08:00

Stay here
夏の光が
二人過ごした
季節を告げる頃
I'm staying here
眩しいくらいに
君の笑顔を思い出していた
夢に続く明日のため
ニ人で決めた距離なのに
涙溢れて止まらないくらい
なぜこんなにも悲しいのだろう?
恋しくて恋しくて君を想いながら
少しずつ実りゆく毎日も
まっすぐにまっすぐに私のままに
越えてゆける強さがほしい
でもI miss you まだ一人じゃいられないよ

Together それぞれの道
重なりあえることばかりじゃなくても
My love 君と出逢えた
優しい気持ちをわすれないでいたい
君がくれた愛はきっと
旅立つための翼だから
泣いてばかりの私じゃダメだよ
いつか願いが叶うように
会いたくて会いたくて君を想いながら
淋しさに振りかえることもあるけど
迷わずに迷わずに私のままに
歩きだせる心信じて
そうI miss you 今素直に伝えたくて
あの日君と見てた
青い海と限りない空は
今も変わらない記憶と共に
この胸に広がっているから oh~
恋しくて恋しくて君を想いながら
少しずつ実りゆく毎日も
まっすぐにまっすぐに私のままに
越えてゆける強さがほしい
会いたくて会いたくて君を想いながら
淋しさに振りかえることもあるけど
迷わずに迷わずに私のままに
歩きだせる心信じて
そうI miss you 今素直に伝えたくて
遠く近く感じながら
さようならのそのかわりに…
oh...

its not virus.

*ehem*

came across this song on someone's page in fb. kinda like it so i decided to share ;)

chilly autumn

2009-10-18T07:19:00.005+08:00

lots to update. shrug. i even stopped updating about my trips ady. memory power deteriorating and plain laziness i hv to say =.=

anyways,

i WILL update about what has been going on these few days.. since i like today's pics most, i shall talk about TODAY first =)

its getting colder each and every day. was told that it was -1 degrees in the evening today. not sure if its real cos i was actually wearing my thinnest jacket outside happily taking pichas! =.= but i did feel like my fingers turning into ice pops =.= seriously.. no kidding :)

before that, samm and i made cornflakes cookies! we were kinda cincai on the measuring part.. and when the mixture turned out a bit salah, we added flour ourselves and mix mix mix till we felt RIGHT. hahaha..

and taa daa.. it turned out pretty good =)

i personally think it was kinda sweet. but calvin said it was GOOD =p hahaha.. and samm said she likes the cookies a lot a lotttt.. so i guess, yea it was good la. hahaha..

;)

and then, me and housemates went and take some autumn pichas =)

autumn is really really beautiful! dried leaves all over the place.. *_* me suka! =)

leaves leaves sekalian ^^

hehe. Rottenrow Garden =)

=) pic of the day!

loving everything here more n more =) if its not for something or rather, someone who calls himself a FREN, that has been giving me a hard time for months, i would hv been happier than i am now..

OH.

shoebox for my 'kid' is READY =)

im really excited about it although i think i'll be even more excited if i get to see the kid's reaction when she got my shoebox..

its feels REALLY good to make people happy =) the smile and the reaction.. totally priceless! ;)

very cute eh? :)

although they're all not expensive stuffs.. hope they would still draw a smile on the little girl's face la =)

off to bed! xxxx.

in or out?

2009-10-13T06:50:00.002+08:00

not gonna rush things.

giving myself ample time to think it through.

think i've never had such a hard time thinking "Do I really want this?" before..

in the past, i would just go for whatever i want at that point of time..

now.. i think it takes more than just a "click" to decide and just go for it..

sign of growing up i hope?

"what is for you, will be yours. what is not, be it what you do, it'll never be yours"

*sigh*

ull never know

2009-10-10T07:25:00.003+08:00

u might wonder..

when someone says "it tastes really really good!".. u might think that person is just exaggerating.. how good can it tastes la rite..

u wont know until you try it yourself..

u might wonder..

how come someone can be so depressed over stuff like that when it seems not so worthwhile anyways?

ever wondered because u've never went through it yourself thats why you dont know?

u might wonder..

how come someone can still like, lets say "Hello Kitty" (something i super dont like if u wanna know), so so so much even when the whole lotsa people around him/her says its so ugly, its so pink, its a CAT puhlease, its so not cute!

think about it..

what each and every one of us went through are totally different things. they could be very very similar things but they're just different.. even though the difference might just be very minute, the outcome and the way things are dealt with can be just very very different.

p/s - i kill insects here myself! just killed one! and im having palpitation now! >.< argh!

losing patience =(

2009-10-07T06:40:00.002+08:00

where got sick people cannot sleep one =.=

last night woke up at 4sth cos whole body was so painful.

today went to bed at 9sth as i was ady super dupper tired. YET i cant sleep. spent two hours plus tossing around in bed and STILL cant sleep.

was so cold so i wore long sleeves and jacket and wrapped myself in my thick duvet. then it got so hot that i started to sweat and so i kicked off my duvet =.= in less than few mins, i felt very cold again. and that went on n on for that 2 hours plus. HOW TO SLEEP la?!

hence, me is here =.=

its time like this when you really really miss ur family and people who will take good care of you..
and also how easy it is to just go straight to clinic to get a doctor to see you........... argh..

colddddd

2009-10-02T05:27:00.003+08:00

its 6 degrees here today. brrr. cold cold even without the wind blowing.

been quite sesat since the first day of the new semester. no more one standard venue for lectures. they're everywhere.. =.=

felt like i've got a lot to do lately but nothing is done so far. i really need to wrap the shoebox for my 'kid' soon.

dono why am i feeling so tired lately. headache almost every day. havent been sleeping well and i wonder why is this happening AGAIN.. *pout*

p/s - the keychain is broken.

shit happens

2009-09-29T04:16:00.003+08:00

when life turns its back on you,

when your family is so far away from you,

when your friends are not there for you when you really need them..

give yourself a good 5 minutes cry and thats it..

"Life goes on even when theres only you alone in this world"

in life.. often there are a lot of things you wish there are answers or explanations to them. and often when we dont get the answers to our questions, we start pushing and dwelling over WHY and more WHYs..

promises and commitments can be the sweetest thing on earth and also the scariest thing ever..

"i will always" and "i will never" are the three words that can leave the biggest impact in one's life..

walk out from your own shadow and gain back your true self and freedom..

interruption

2009-09-28T18:33:00.004+08:00

its a monday and it feels like a sunday to me..

slightly annoyed by how people unnecessarily act the way they acted and has got no idea that its really annoying.. trying to create drama when actually no one's actually interested at all... puh lease la.. haiyooo..

Anyways,

sunday started off bad.. woke up in the middle of the night.. shivering in cold.. sneezing from time to time and din get to sleep at all after that..

went to church as usual. walked into the room and the first thing i got was a hugeee hug from natanya.. she ran from far far away and bang on my tummy and hugged me so tightly.. very very dai sek.. =) service went on as usual and i was so so tired looking that someone actually thought i looked SAD.. =.=

in the noon,

had good lunch at our really nice malay batchmates place.. they had this raya open house =) for ALL of us.. imagine that.. 100 over people.. squeezing around in the small house for food is no fun but the food was GOOD :) i really really miss rendang, sambal and all those malaysian food that we can hardly even SMELL over here :(

came back home. telan-ed some med and wrapped myself in bed. k.o-ed for a few hours. woke up STILL sneezing.. and tired..

later at night,

had good DINNER again. lol.. it was yx's bday =) pot luck as usual! :) lotsa lotsa nice food.. i guess all of us can cook one actually.. just that we never did at home :P hehehe at least i dont lor :P

brownies made by all four of us =) comel kan? ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY chewyeexian! ;)

"true happiness comes from ourself and not hoping for happiness from other people"

p/s - so in love with twilight again. no idea why. but when i heard the song playing now on my bloggie, i so have the urge to learn it and play it for my special someone one day :)

haha. i know i said the same thing before when i was in form 4 that i wanna learn Canon in D and play for that GBT that time. hehe it didnt happen that time cos i was YOUNG ok? (lame excuse) hahaha..

but i wanna learn this song eh seriously.. seriously serious!!! ;)

off to Harewood (Day 2)

2009-09-27T05:07:00.016+08:00

i rmb not having a good sleep on the first night for some reasons..

but still, forced myself to not look chan and smileeeee besar-ly to the camera -.-

while waiting for the bus to Harewood =)

Reached ;)

in the buggy :)

There were a few places that we should visit :) Bird Garden, Lakeside, The House and the penguins!! ;)

first up!

"enjoy the birds" - as though we were gonna eat them.. =.= reminds me of that day when we saw a pigeon, and someone started talking about how nice is Steven's Corner's burung! aiyoooo i miss it soooo much!!

on the way to the Bird Garden.. we saw this..

sungguh the gemuk itu turkey! comel but very jahat. bully people to get its food

very very cute running-away-ducks ;) love this pic :)

we also saw this! made me kinda homesick for one second =.=

AYAM! its that kinda ayam that always runs around my kampung!! ^^
and this burung has an interesting name. was so happy when i saw it. but i strongly dont wanna type it out here now. dont ask why. thank you =)

reminds me of my less than 7 days cute snowy :)

it looked so kelian in my hands :) i guess it never did like me before.. :)

and THIS is the CUTEST COMEL-EST MOST ADORABLE bird i've ever ever seen! ;) looks like fake one aint it? :)

we dont get to feed the birds. but we do get to feed the ducks instead :P

Mr Y throw in 20pence to get some feed for us to feed the duckies! :)

After the Bird Garden,

the lake was soooooooo beautiful :) really really nice.. so nice that i really wanna stand there forever and watch the ducks swim in line.. so adorable.. everything just felt so peaceful at that moment..

the path and the lake :)

sorry la. really think its very cantik that i hv to upload so many pics of the same lake :P

thanks to Mr Y for taking so many cantik solo portraits of us :)

lagi satu :)

tiga orang's turn :)

along the way, we met this uncle who works there.. he told us to look far out there where there was a bunch of flamingoes.. then we saw a weird greyish bird standing in the bunch of orange flamingoes.. he pointed to us that that was the one and only baby flamingo after 20+ years..

not sure if it can be seen in this pic.. but its somewhere there.. hehe.. real cute =)

after quite some time of walking, we came to this very pretty house :) no idea what is it.. but it looks so "English" :) love that place so much :)

then we went into the Fruit Garden :)

the entrance :)

kinda lazy to upload the pics in there. haha. ok la. we saw raspberries, blueberries, apples, pears and.. sweet corn? haha.. i dont rmb all.. but the fruits didnt look very healthy ady =.=

nicest fish and chips i've tasted so far in UK =)

us chilling outside a while after lunch =)

after lunch,

we headed off to see the penguins being fed =) penguins look so super silly.. i love silly things.. just like how i love giraffes.. hehehe..

fake penguin will do :)

makan time! ;) very obedient kids they are :) they dont fight when they see others ate the fishes. they will just give the "HUH" look and continue waiting for their turns.. so cute!

swimmmmmm :)

and we saw this super dupper leng zai boy there when we were watching the penguins..

was so scared that i'll be accused of being a paedophile.. i secretly snap this pic of him :P thus the hand of Mr Y in the pic -.-"

then we walked to the House.. nothing much that i can rmb of.. just what the servants do and how the servants work and how they dressed up last time.. that kinda thing..

but the view outside the House was really nice.. :) but too bad.. Mr Y's cam ran out of battery and samm's too.. :S only left my cacat-ed camera (compared to itu canggih punya DSLR)

so bear with the quality of the photos la k? :)

cantik kan the garden? :)

us with some sculpture.. dono who and dono what was it about ady :S

that was pretty much it for Harewood :)

we headed back home after that.. dont know why we were so excited about cooking.. so we had homecook dinner that night =)

funny thing is Mr Y's fren so ngam went to his place that day and he so happened to be a fren's fren.. small small world it is.. and 3 of his hsemates are my hsemate's hometown friend.. and another hsemate of his is my imu friend's friend.. such a smalllll world =.=

so we all had dinner together =) real nice food accompanied by real funny and nice people.. very nice day it was :)

pork belly by Gerald

pork belly AGAIN by Mr Y (only diff is this is without cornstarch as they say)

chicken by Stephanie

Steamed Egg by Gerald

vege by dono who :S forgot!

vege by samm =)

of cos i did sth la right? ABC soup by moi =)

OMG! took me almost one and a half hour to complete this post! kao meng ar.. =.=

oh and this is STH NOT about the trip :P

me cooked chicken porridge today =)

hsemates claimed that its really good :P wahahahhhaha.. happy wappy cos i really love porridge =)

and as expected, i didnt go for the pharmacy night out in Bamboo (one of the clubs) tonight.. LOL.. not quite interested for no particular reasons.. when im in the mood to club, nothing stops me from going.. but when im not, sorry lah =)

ugh. my turn to have flu and sorethroat now.. what has italy done to me! :( firstly face, now throat and nose.. roarrrrrrrr..

someone pls help me with my face pls thank you? :( im terribly sad now looking into the mirror everyday..

Trip to Leeds Day 1 =)

2009-09-26T05:01:00.007+08:00

it was on the 5th Sept 2009 that we left Glasgow for Leeds =)

took us almost 6 hours to reach.. supposedly 5 hours.. but for the 2nd train, blurrie us watched the train ran off right in front of us not knowing it was the train that we were supposed to take >< so we had to wait for another hour :S

our seat numbers :)

where we waited for our 2nd train :)

it was so freezing cold at the train station that when we talked, we can see 'smoke' coming out =) and we were both very excited and hehe did lotsa silly stuff there :P

cup of tea that i bought to warm myself up while waiting

we also had our packed lunch there in the waiting room :)

samm's fried rice by her bf =)

my fried bihun by myself of cos :)

in the train :)

and this might sound a bit crazy. but i actually vomited in the train >< i dont know why.. but i felt so super dizzy and unwell.. knew it was coming and so i managed to run to the washroom :P don worry. i din embarrass myself ;)

reached Leeds and Mr Y came and picked us up :)

it was ady almost 4pm if im not wrong? we took the free city bus and walked back to his place and left our luggages :) soon after, we went to Leeds city to check out the shopping places!! :)

and of cos, for dinner! =) it was our FIRST time eating chinese dinner outside since we came to UK and it was SUPERB ;)

Red Chilli Restaurant :)

part of the menu :)

very super dupper spicy and delicious szechuan style beef..

Dried Chilli Chicken =) super nice as well ;)

White Rice!! :) its a must when it comes to chinese dinner :P

we loveeee the food ;)

that was how happy i was after being fed full full with all the food ;)

then we headed off to Sainsbury to buy some stuff to cook the next day or so =) and went back home to get some rest and explore his house and ROOM ;) ngek ngek..

and i found this! to teman me sleep every single night over there :) i cant sleep without hugging something. thankfully i found this abandoned doggie ;)

forgot who took this pic of me.. but yea. it kinda just sums up this post :)

p/s - should i really continue doing this? this is like the shortest day of all during the trips and i spent almost 45 minutes thinking and typing >< yawns! (yes im yawning in all of my posts.. cos im always BOREDDDDDDDD and SLEEPYYYY lately)

the end

2009-09-25T18:42:00.005+08:00

finally back to Glasgow after two "ALMOST" continuous trips..

today marks the end of my 1 month plus summer break *pout* :(

woke up this morning and looked out the window.. sun shining right into my room (as usual) and the trees outside are turning yellow.. sign of autumn approaching :) think its really pretty to see the leaves slowly turn yellow and being botak-fied later on.. :)

cleaned my room today :) and i realise how important it is for a room to be clean and tidy.. it really affects one's mood :) im loving the place i stay here in Glasgow more and more :)

oh btw..

im actually planning to write every single day of my trip here in diff diff posts :) not sure if its a good idea.. cos :

1) i dont think i rmb what i did exactly..

2) its gonna take a lot of time and effort..

3) what if no one's interested? :P hehe ok la. i don really care about this.

i'll just write what i want and skip the parts/days that i cant rmb much about :P

will probably do it later when im back from some registration/orientation or whatever u call it.. UoS is scary.. gotta pay another 60 pounds for notes. darn it. so expensive..

oh sth vy random.. my personal msg in msn was "cucumber as companion tonight :)"

and a fren came and tell me "cucumber as companion?.. makes people simply think eh"

SWTTTTTTTT big time.

just to make things clear.. it was THIS that i did last night..

and why would woonhueyying bother to do this kinda thing? ><

because my face got sensitive again during my italy trip.. red stuff popping up all over my face and it was actually itchy last few days :(

terribly emo.

woke up this morning and find cucumbers lying all over my bed -.-" but hsemate said "EH? not so red ady wor"

*happy* :))))

more updates later or sth. yawnssssss!

ciao-ing off tomoro!

2009-09-14T05:50:00.005+08:00

to where?

ITALY! :)

almost 70% of my batchmates went to italy this sem break :) so yeah, pics of Italy will be everywhere on facebook till no one wants to view each other's pics nemore. hahaha :P

just got back from 6 days trip to few places in England.. and now heading to Italy.. honestly, i havent got enough rest.. shoulders still pain, hip still hurts.. worse still, plus another SORETHROAT now! :(

will probably update a little here and there about everything. but high probability of NOT doing it.. hahaha. 6 days of England and 9 days of Italy wei.. dont think anyone expects much from me la aye? :P

will be back on the 23rd and 25th class starts! sei dak ><

please pray for safe journey for us 8 girls and lesser communication problem in Italy :) i think im gonna miss my room a lot.. argh..

for mummy, who i assume misses me a lot :P

Dear Bloggie..

2009-09-04T05:37:00.010+08:00

when i ignored u a lot, i tend to feel very guilty.. to the extend that i thought of 'killing' you so that i wont have the chance to ignore you..

anyways, im always saying only.. its been almost 3 years with you.. not that easy to 'kill' you off. as much as i want to sometimes ><

ANYWAYSSSSSSSS.. wee updates about Edinburgh trip =)

in the train :)

just reached Edinburgh =)

headed off to the must-go Edinburgh Castle..

on the way..

beautiful flowers on the way =)

outside the castle =)

in the Castle =)

whose famous pose is this again? :P

Then,

off we went exploring :)

go go go ;)

in some random piece of thing outside a monument :S

Prisons of War :)

In the prison ;)

not kelian enough ><

then we went to the St. Margaret's Chapel.. where it can only fit 20 ppl if someone were to hold a wedding in there =) very very very small.. ><

in the chapel =)

there were more places in the castle that we've visited. but we were not allowed to take pics in some of the places and due to few times of failure in uploading these pics, i give up ady ><

SOOOO..

Last,

the famous longgg Lang stairs ;)

After visiting the castle,

we walked around the city :) it was also during the Fringe Festival when we were there. so we managed to catch a few performances while walking around ;)

and as we walked, we saw this lady.. very pretty and graceful lady she is =) was so impressed when i see how she moved every inch..

k la lazy ady. thats all for Edinburgh.

running back to my Little Nyonya now ;) everyone keep telling me how kelian this series is and will cry like water pipe.. surprisingly, i didnt cry at all.. >< maybe because my tears are all dried up ady =.=

ciaos!

something

2009-08-27T07:17:00.004+08:00

couldnt think of a better title for this post. something is better than 'nothing' la rite? ><

after one week plus of dono-doing-what, we're heading off to Edinburgh tomoro =) 16 of us if im not wrong? :) hope the weather's good tomoro.. not very hyper super excited about it somehow.. but yea, a one day trip away from this place can be quite pleasant =)

last night was a very 'sinful' night. i ate non stop from 9pm onwards. till almost 1am =.=

from LG, we had carrot cake by Pui Ee, banana dessert by Zh Xing, Macaroni and Cheese by Samm and brownies by ME! :P

then samm came over and we ate another carrot cake by Do =) then we suddenly had craving for maggie mee. so we cooked maggie mee. AND THEN.. i heated up my fish with cheese and butter and we finished it.. ANDDD THENNN, yx called and asked us to go down eat some food from Rumours.. so we went down, EAT again.. so super full yet we continue to eat and eat and eat..

we came back and watched Taken together.. and sleepy me never fails falling asleep when i watch movie in the midnight. so yea.. i paused at the very gan jiong part and told samm "i cannot ady".. hahaha. super potong steam. but teeehehehe =p sleepy means sleepy ma rite? zzzzz straight away ><

and today, we went out and shop shop.. and after dinner, we continued watching it =) and did some girly thing =p

thats my left hand :)

our hands =)

cheap and nice ;)

prays hard for good weather tomoro. and prays hard for everyone back home. i know how tiring can it be.. and i havent been calling back home for daysss cos i was afraid i would disturb :( hope all is fine......

what a doc

2009-08-24T20:32:00.003+08:00

...

went and see the doc this morning. reached at 10am and the receptionist told me to come back at 11am to see the doc. walked around Argylle and went back.

all i get from the doc is rough pulling of both my ears.. and after looking into my ears so long, he told me he sees NOTHING except for a bit of wax..

when i told him its bleeding and painful, he said "but i dont see anything".. then i told him when i press, it hurts.. he pressed pressed and said "hmm its really nothing, its normal to me"..

*faint*

i guess all i can do now is to leave it as it is and let it goes off itself.

just got a very heart breaking news from home. all i can do now is to pray hard and to not think negatively. cos it is a relief for him..

one day..

2009-08-24T06:22:00.003+08:00

told myself one day.. and one day it is..

had an awesome lunch with batchmates today. had african lunch prepared by Mrs B, an african lady from church today =) her house was sooooooo nice.. small yet cozy and simple.. very white.. very clean looking.. very 'home' :)

shall upload the pics we took there when i've got those pics from people who brought their cameras :)

anyway,

my left ear has been infected since 3-4 days ago. but i didnt really bother about it cos it doesnt seem to be THAT pain anyway. today it got worse and it started to bleed with some 'zap' inside.. arghhh.. went to pharmacy to see if theres ear drops for infection but couldnt get any..

so decided to go to see doctor myself tomoro early in the morning! pray that i wouldnt need to make an appointment and that i can walk in and see the doctor early early in the morning.. i shall try my best to either give the sweetest smile or to give the most painful smile to make that happen!

yawns. here blogging cos i ter-missed dloading one episode of burning flame 3 and im waiting for it to be completed now so that i can continue watching :)

burden's finally off my shoulder, thrown out of the window.. feels so much lighter now :)

the only thing bothering me now is things back home. i shall call mum later to find out.. *prays hard*

official holidays!

2009-08-22T02:31:00.003+08:00

yeap it is officially OFFICIAL :)

however it doesnt feel much like holidays.. normally by the end of the semester, i would go packing and happily waiting for the day to go back home.. and spend one good month at home.. then only start with the "war" again..

this time around..

it just feels so different.. after exam, still we'll have to cook for ourselves.. still in the same room.. ><

i miss home!!!!!!!!!!!! ><

only thing different is that WE FINALLY GET TO SHOP!!!! :P and not think about studies at all! double happiness!

spent quite a lot today and felt so guilty after.. but after a while, i think they're WORTH it =) *happy*

one big thing that i wish i could celebrate with my family is that i actually got EXEMPTED for pp3.. and i was in tears when it was announced.. friends came and hugged me and even the lab tech came and pat pat me.. >< so malu.. but i really really REALLY didnt expect it.. cos i seriously thought i did something wrong in the syringe driver prescription..

partly, i was also quite stressed cos before the results were told, a few of them came to me and said "wei i hv a feeling u'll be exempted!".. at that point, my heart beats even faster.. ><

there.. i wouldnt have to see 'you' ever again =) Praise God :)

whats better is that.. our WHOLE house got exempted! Praiseeee God praiseeee God :)
and of cos, thanks to Kelvin as well =) he's been advising us all on pp3 so much before he ciao back to malaysia..

with this,

im wishing all my fellow batchmates who are sitting their degree paper on monday and tuesday ALL the BEST =) we can ALL do this..

after tuesday, we shall all go *weeeeeeeeee* together =) =) =)

some random pics =)

sleep over at my place =)

the kinda expensive gummies and sour tape which definitely made me feel better after being nauseated for like a week plus ><

something to make me real fatttt ~~and happy~~

to end with.. me with pimples attack ><

p/s - someone pls tell me where to get cheap swimsuit over here. and NOT bikini one.. thank you =)

series marathon

2009-08-06T22:53:00.004+08:00

yes. series is definitely important in accompanying me going thru my exams and all..

they're like my best companion now =)

just finished Great Way to Care last two weeks. and finished 90210 yesterday =)

and i found Matt Lander real real cute in 90210 :) if i were to meet someone THIS cute here, how lucky would that beeeee.. *melts*

he's in fact quite a jerk in 90210. but jerkish in a yeng way. haha how many people can be so riteeeee? *pengsan*

anyways,

theres this song that keeps playing in my head every single day lately.. think its really meaningful.. a bit emo.. but hmm.. =)

been quite free lately (not supposed to be since 14th,17th,18th and 21st we'll be having exams AGAIN).. but yeah.. just needed to take breather for just a while after all the very packed class tests.. so i have been lengang-ing for two days liao :)

and gosh. its only 2 months that im here. and i'm ady started cracking my head everyday thinking about WHAT to eat for lunch and dinner. cos i really RAN OUT OF IDEA.. >.<

maybe its time to look up for some recipes online. haih..

it sucks to feel sooooo super sleepy DURING exam period and now that exam is over (at least for a while) and i CANT seem to fall asleep easily. argh :(

the fella who tries to cheer me up from time to time even back in KL with his wu liau-ness.. so obvious rite judging from his pm.. =.=

anyways.. its good to have family and good friends around who always remind you not to be stress.. not to compare.. not to think too much.. and to scold you from time to time not to always be so weak and dependent.. :)

totally appreciate all of those advices now :)

not-so-random songs.

2009-08-05T17:56:00.003+08:00

你最近还好吗

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底
你能不能收到它

天有点冷风有点大
城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念裏挣扎
你说会记得我
还记得吗

你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长
回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念裏挣扎
你说会记得我
还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念裏挣扎
你说会记得我
还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗
心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发隐藏

可爱

咖啡已经温热不再
静静在一旁发呆
连风也停留窗外等待

电话也已经喧闹不在
静静在一旁无奈
时钟也不知怎么停下来

期待突然醒来有你
温暖依赖(有爱可以依赖)
只是爱与不爱在徘徊摇摆

我想你明白可能不是爱
我想你只想找个替代
你都说自己并没有那么可爱
我想你明白这并不是爱
我想你忘了什么是爱
我不过是可爱却还不够被爱

things are going round and round and i wonder when will it stop.

Lady's Night tonight and a visit to the elderly home tomoro :)

p/s - big time pimples attack made me soooo super emo yest night!!! :( so i made myself steamed chicken, steamed egg and vege today for lunch and dinner! roarrr. go away pimples! :(

running out of time and energy

2009-07-24T07:35:00.005+08:00

i hate to complaint but yet i complaint so often.

haih. seriously lo. who doesnt think sem 6 is killing wei? :( its like the worst of the worst sem so far wei.. crazy arrangements of timetable..

anyways, despite how stress i am with studies.. i still have to be stressed about my stomach every single day.. (which i think is the reason why i've been having diarrhoea and all sorta weird things going on with me lately)

my 2nd attempt of wantan mee. berjaya liao :)

dinner yesterday. something slightly healthier after bad symptoms of heaty-ness :(

dinner tonight. steamed chicken =) tasted real good *perasan look* and most importantly, its healthy! (i think?) ;p

AHHHH~ probably these are the reasons why i've been feeling so not well lately :S

BIG SIGH.
i should go to bed now since everything i study is just not going in :( and i'm waking up early tomoro to do laundry! *hakkk*

TO END WITH..

i'm ANNOYED!

p/s ---

the skirt i like a lot a lot a lottttt. but no more size :( and its sooooooo soooooo cheap only :((((((((((

ok la. not that practical la actually. i dont really know what should i wear it with also.. sth formal and tucked in yeah. but wear to where la?! 0.0

Sunday again..

2009-07-20T07:44:00.004+08:00

ying love Sundays..

its 12.45am now and i am actually really really sleepy. but just to not waste my own effort of the pics i've taken for these few days.. im here with sleepy eyes posting this..

barley cooked at 12.30am by me n oxy. but i cabut early to sleep and left her to jaga the api alone till i dono what time. 3am? :P

barley with garlic bread was my breakfast yesterday morning =)

been having terrible diarrhoea for 3 days.. and on the 3rd day, i finally decided to eat something 'healthier' a.k.a tasteless..

white porridge with pickled lettuce

with oso steam egg. told u i can eat this almost everyday.

and fried bihun for lunch just now =) very happy cos quite berjaya =)

OH. and last two weeks when i just came, i saw this digestives biscuits and i struggled for so long whether to buy it or not cos it was 1 pound plus.. i bought it in the end :S

and i just ate it on friday. and it was SUPER DUPPER EXTRAORDINARY NICEEEEE.

promised to show this. bitten it into a moon shape :p a bit cacat. but hehehe :)

anyway, i found a cheap one in Aldi thanks to Oxy. only 59p if im not wrong. so happy.. cheap stuff here makes me happy.. :P

and this would be the reason why i love this sunday so much =)

baby daniel. baby of uncle henry and su yin =)

he's 3 weeks old and he's so so so small. sooooo super cuteeeee :)

heart babies soooo much :) that im considering to take up uncle henry's offer of B'n'B.. hahaha. ok im kidding :S

but babies are real real real adorable la. aiyoooo heart melts.. u can hear me go "yooo so cute. so cuteeeee la. u seeeee" as long as i see any babies around..

and very sien one when im with SOMEONE who doesnt fancy babies~ -.- u know who u are.. *roar*

friendship

2009-07-18T07:49:00.005+08:00

browse through my folders in comp and found this :) reminds me of all the happy days we used to have in secondary school..

all the naughty things we did, all the funny stuff we laughed about, all the sad stuff all of us used to share..

i'm sure you guys would meet up and go talking about me being so far away and all.. some of you might even wonder how will i change after this one year.. (hehe i know this becos when im with u guys, u guys would wonder how weilin and peiwen have changed to after so long in overseas) :P

just to let u know.. our friendship will never ever change =) and i really miss you guys..

:) especially you, ting..

miss life back in KL

2009-07-17T05:28:00.002+08:00

busy yet free is what im feeling right now..

walk to uni, back from uni, eat lunch, go uni again, come back either rest or cook, eat dinner, bathe, do work/study, sleep..

thats what i do everyday here :(

spent 2 hours plus on my report just now and its still not done yet :( normally back in KL, if i were to be tired or sien.. i would just call around to see who wants to go out yam cha or go for a movie or whatever..

now that im here. shop closes at 5pm and there really is no where to go in the middle of the night like this. seriously. its REALLY REALLY very sien one. i mean, compared to how free i used to be in KL.. just grab my car key and drive off anytime..

haih. i really miss yam cha-ing and shopping malls and CINEMAS. they do have cinemas here but haihs.. i just miss GSC and TGV la really..

pics of food again..

japanese tauhu hidden somewhere down there with capsicum and carrot .. by doreen and oxy =)

grilled honey chicken also by doreen and oxy

erm dono what is it called. some dark soy sauce chicken by yean leeng..

and steam egg by me :P yes again.. i can eat this everyday wei seriously..

french beans by me =) think its called stuart beans over here. haha.

4 days break from tomoro onwards :)

initially, we've got no plans cos we din wanna have plans for this four days. then hmm, somehow i feel this weekend's gonna fly pass real fast cos i can somehow 'smell' plans on the way liao. lol.. cant wait to eat nice nice pan mee by jace this saturday =)

p/s - almost every night i eat something before i sleep.. but im losing weight. our weighing scale is so not chun! :(((

its raining its pouring

2009-07-14T04:30:00.004+08:00

here in Glasgow..
i was told this is how the weather's gonna behave for the rest of our summer and maybe the coming seasons as well.. how is this not gonna be gloomy and sad for all of us :(

stress stress stress is all i can say about myself lately.

24th July : Deadline for FMT1 report
28th July : FMT1 class test
31st July : PP3 class test
4th August : FMT2 class test

and im still blur-ing my way through every single day..

Today's lunch

and DINNER,

Chicken with brocolli and capsicum by YL

'sour' tauhu by me :S think the tauhu cacat ad =.=|||

and im hungry ady now!

roar.

something new and odd

2009-07-13T04:01:00.007+08:00

=) beautiful Sunday it is today..

went to church.. great sermon by Pastor Mike.. love one of the songs a lot =) me and samm both think the lyrics are really meaningful and we kinda like the song alot :)

You are so beautiful
There is none that compares to You
Who can take my brokenness
and make something new?
Only You

You're beautiful to me
You will be my song for all eternity
You're overtaking every part of me
You're beautiful to me

Merciful Father
There is none that compares to You
Who can take my bitterness
And make something sweet?
Only You
And I am left in awe of You (4x)

:) came back and cooked lunch. then got a call from samm saying that she wants to join me for lunch. was quite happy cos we've always wanted to cook and eat together =)

Noodles =) shrimps and vege supplied by samm :)

we talked and she went back after a while =) had a good time talking to her..

then i cooked this for dinner =) it turned out quite okay. just a bit not salty enough :P

it smells like what mum cooks but it tastes different :( but i'll improve! *hak*

back to the title of this post..

a guy from church been messaging me in facebook. then today ..

N : hey. i've got something to ask you. it might sound a bit weird
Me : oh whats that?
N : theres a girl in church who looks EXACTLY like you. are you both sisters or something?
Me : oh i was the one in black today. and i think the one u're talking about is in pink today?
N : YEA! you guys look so alike. rmb the guy who were at the media table?
Me : yeah
N : even he thinks so too. he too thought you both are sisters.
Me : huh seriously? Chris got us mixed up also the first few days. but both of us dont think we look alike at all! LOL
N : u might be surprised of how many people got u mixed up :P seriously!

=.=||| guess who?

HMMMMM. we both dont think so at all =) not becos we dont love each other and we're REALLY closeeee friends but REALLY not alike ma. *faint*

oh samm. forgot if i replied your msg in msn just now.. and yes i miss you too! HEHE =)

no class tomoro morning! *weeeeee*

of pre and post pp3 class test

2009-07-12T05:17:00.006+08:00

my group was the first group to have the FIRST pp3 class test. the well known subject among all pharm students, students' family members and all friends.. the very dreadful subject..

the night before the class test, three of us were in living room konon-nya wanna do past years and discuss.. but ended up keep going out of topic.. haha.. and also with the 'helpful' senior around.. a.k.a my babi mentor.. =p but he was really nice la. one night, cooked green bean soup for us as supper =) then another night, cooked red bean soup =) next would be barley.. wahhaha..

anyways, pp3 din went very well for me. erm, i mean, yes i did finish all 4 prescriptions on time and a few of them did not and i felt so bad for them. butttt.. i have a feeling, the mistakes i made are not those mini minor mistakes =.= and there will be one or two -60 error :( ok i'm very negative.. *smacks head*

ok lets talk about post pp3!! :D after lunch, went out with kelv and doreen. went to quite a number of shops. and bought quite a number of ~~cheap~~ things. bought a skirt from kid's department. haha :P and from then onwards, my babi mentor calls me Bimbo Ying~ =.=|||

oh and i came across a bikini. MUM dont worry.. i didnt buy it! it was REALLY cheap but still, i didnt buy it :P i'm just desperate for a swim wear cause i REALLY wanna go swimmmmmmmmmmmm :(

as for dinner, oxy joined us and we headed to Mussel Inn =)

1/2 kilo of DELICIOUS mussels for only 5.50 pounds. summore with FREE flow bread. *stomach growling*

Mussel Inn along Hope Street

sth oxy cannot resist :)

Doreen and Oxy's Mussels in Blue Cheese

Kelvin and I shared Shallot Mussels

itu childish fella suggested to play this to decide who squeezes the lemon -.- first one - DRAW..

see his evil face. i finally lost :(

and thats me squeezing the lemon

roar~ mussels!!

after dinner, we decided to watch Angels and Demons and drink at home.. just when kelvin on his comp to transfer the movie over to my comp.. we ended up looking thru all the pics he took in Italy and he went showing us one pic by one pic which place is a MUST go.. :) i was soooo sleepy.. not that im not excited about Italy trip. but aiyooo.. all the buildings seriously look the same leh :(

so we ended up started watching the movie at 11.30pm.. =.= and most of us were ady hungry by then. so we went and grill curly fries and wedges. and guess wat, they went HANGUS. ROFL. well, we dont waste food. we still ate those not so hangus one and left those hangus one for kelv. wahahaha :P

and we drank some red wine that he brought over. the red wine was eeeeewwwwww. ok la, its supposed to be a good wine and supposed to be NICE one la. but i just dont like it la. the smell is ady so geng. wat more the taste of it. uek..

the movie was NICEEEE.. but i was soooo sleepy that i went 'fishing' from time to time and stupid kelvin would go tickling me and putting the cold red wine cup on my cheek to wake me up =.= i kept saying i wanna go sleep ady and he would go "nice ady this part. seriously!! this part must watch one".. then i'll go O_O again.. and in less than 10 secs, i would go -_- again.. haha..

anyway, thats about it la =) quite a happening friday for all of us.. friday is always the best day of the week for ALL of us here =)

to end with.. a few random pics of myself.. teeehehehehe

playing with kelv's itouch. very cacat looking -.-

thats me ss-ing in my room all the time

pa. here comes ur turn :P no la. its actually just to compare my hair one month ago. haha.

dono if the difference is obvious from these two pics. but i realise my hair is growing quite fast and its only ONE month.. *takut* i don wanna cut my hair HERE.

weird day

2009-07-08T05:33:00.004+08:00

cos its supposed to be a happy day..

it is in fact quite a funny day. i talked to mum in the morning. and since she's in the office, i got to see quite a number of people.

3rd uncle lost some weight and face looks smaller.. boy still looks so entau even on webcam.. wan looks the same except that she let her hair down more often now i guess? uncle ah sia was really funny.. the way he put the headphone on his head was like putting a head band on the forehead :P

then i went to uni for morning lecture and workshop by the 'pepsi' lecturer. then skipped noon class. came back complete my protocol for friday's test. then talked to parents and sis till 5pm! when i told my housemates about that, they were like "WAHHH geng eh u. can talk so longggg one!!" =.=

after that, cooked dinner and went for LG. heres some pic of dinner =)

Grilled Salmon by Me

Fried Lotus Root by YeanLeeng

Seaweed Soup with SpareRibs by Me.

i didnt like the soup a lot. cos the pork here somehow stinks even after being boiled with hot water TWICE -.- eeeewwwwww

kalefeh :P my breakfast for 3 days straight ady =.= Milk Bread with Cheese v Ham

when i came back from LG, thats when i feel very moody and i dono.. odd?

its maybe just one of those PMS days. but hmm. it doesnt feel good and i dont think i'm gonna like this feeling i have now for the rest of the night.

he made my day though (but it was day before yesterday)

he blew me a kiss =)

and we shared our bear bear just like how we always do back home :P

on skype, he asked me "Ku ku, where are you?"
then i answered "I'm at 'ying guo'" (ying guo is UK in mandarin)
then he was like "ying guo arrr.."
then i asked him "you wanna come find me?"
then he manja-ly said "WANT.."
then i asked him "you ask daddy mummy to bring you sit aeroplane and come here k?"
then he was like "OKIE!"

then he went running to my dad n mum telling them "Ku ku is at ying guo lehhhhh. ying guo leh. ku ku is at ying guo leh" LOL so cute. i dont think he knows what ying guo is actually.

and if any of you was wondering how old is this boy, he's only THREE! =)

back to emo-ness.....................

2009-07-05T06:16:00.005+08:00

its finally back to the "normal" Glasgow weather. windy, cold and soon-to-be rainy.

I was shivering in tshirt and short pants in my room today until i had to close my window. no ventilation uek~

anyway, as promised.. the good dishes on friday =)

Balinese Beef by YeanLeeng

Black Saucebean Chicken by Doreen and Me (she prepared all the ingredients though :P)

Steamed Egg by Me :P we actually have enough food. i was just having heavy craving for steamed egg that day. dont know why..

Vege by Doreen =)

random :)

Thats my dinner on friday =)

And this is my DINNER just now =)

Spaghetti with Campbell Soup (sis's recipe. and it turned out not bad at all *winks*)

Garlic Bread =)

So far, no.. i havent gain weight ~~yet~~ . that is if the weighing scale in my house is accurate la. hopefully i've ady gained enough weight back home during the holidays and thats the maximum weight i can reach ad. wahahahah. as if thats possible :(

but one thing for sure is that.. i became darker instead of fairer over here! ugh.. when i was bathing today, i realised how dark my legs became.. and when i think back, its definitely from the Loch Lomond outing :( i wore short sleeve tee and short pants whole day there :( and i had sunburn on both my feet :( even my wrist has my watch's mark there now :(

so today, very randomly.. i thought of doing some exercise in the room.. dahlah wont sweat.. summore i memang dont exercise one. only know a few types.. one of them was to jump :S jumped less than 4 times then i stopped.. cos was scared renly (whose room is right below me) would hear "boom boom boom" :(

can someone please tell me what other kinda exercises can i do in the room? :( sit up doesnt work cos the bed is too soft. dont tell me to do it on the floor. i feel a bit.. errr, dirty?

one random pic of me taken by kelvin at loch lomond the other day. just to show how geng cao is his camera. super nice eh the scenery.. ignore my expression tho :S

"lok tong kai" in the middle of pp3

2009-07-04T02:27:00.003+08:00

finally it rained today over here.

last two days were so hotttt. ok la not very hot compared to malaysia. around 23 degrees. but its like the hottest ady for here.

few days ago, a few of my very "efficient" batchmates cooked till they actually trigger the fire alarm =.= the alarm was sooooooooo loud and its located in each room right above our bed -.- almost went deaf that day -.- everyone came out complaining who cook until so geng AGAIN.. cos previously JBC experienced the same thing.. but thanks to them we had such funny experience :P

all of us gathered outside. some with wet hair, some in pyjamas, some even in their home slippers :P so cute.. when the firemen came, the girls were all kap-ing the guys.. even their firemen here are soooo lengzai :P hahaha~~ :D quite a fun experience :P

BUT NOT TODAY!

same thing but it happened in uni. dammit. and we were having our pp3 lab. the other two groups were doing tabletting and STERILE. damn funny. a few of them came out in sterile suits. LOL~ and it was RAINING quite heavily outside. and we were all in lab coats! =.= all struggling to find shelters. super kelian.. =.="

most of us got very wettt.. it was soooo cold. even when im home, i still feel super cold. i thought the lecturers would be kind enough to let us go back earlier since we were all wet. including the lecturers and the staffs. mana tau, tak ada :( so coldddddd :(

and i gave up on milk ad :( milk is giving me serious diarrhoea and gastric pain :( so im left with hot choc and i cant be drinking it everydayyyyy.. i still have lotsa cereals..

p/s - had a very satisfying dinner today. 4 dishes for 5 of us! :P shall get the pics from doreen soon and post them up =) its weekend again :)

For Mummy =)

2009-07-02T23:29:00.005+08:00

upon request of sis to post my fried rice here.. i shall just post all the pics i took specially for Mummy =)

Fried Rice with XO Sauce =)
*slurps*

La Mian with "zap" :P

first attempt was nicer =)

my first embarass moment in glasgow :(

the cute cap mum and dad chose for me =)

the cute swan reminds me of you, mum :P

reminds me of Buddy =)

Loch Lomond =)

my room is not as messy as you thought it will be =)

this i have to admit. my study table is a lot messier now. which means im doing work right? :P good sign aint it? :P

the little chickens that you think will cheer me up everyday when im home =)

Living Hall =)

Dining Table =)

View from my room's window. thats where jie used to stay =)

forgotten to take picture of my bak kut teh yesterday. and when i remembered, i was not in mood ady :P but there are more to come =) thanks for letting me watch you cook and fan you all the time in kitchen, mum~ if not, i think i would be in deep trouble over here right now~ not that i can cook well here now.. but at least better than nothing =)

i miss you mum! a lot a lot.. seeing you from the webbie every morning makes me so wanna cubit you :P

I'll be a good girl here i promise :) Love You~

burdening

2009-07-02T01:23:00.003+08:00

it really is a burden to care too much over things that are obviously not meant to be anymore.

it really sucks to have these things in my mind and that i cant bring myself to do other things other than to just sit down and keep thinking and thinking about them over and over again..

i know He is there. i dont know if its even possible but i wish He would just give me a definite answer on what to do so i wouldn't be so lost and keep falling back to square one again and again.

im always praying. but would You give me an answer please?

if cooking such delicious fried rice keeps my mind away from those things, i dont mind cooking whole night.. at least for tonight..

class test coming next friday. and i am freaking out cos its pp3. i'm gonna face the worst paper ever where negative marks actually exist.

its 7.40pm now and i'm gonna make sure i'm fully occupied till 12am and doze off straight after that. nights.