my ever wandering heart

Who Am I

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapour in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

What Faith Can Do

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you're stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

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the only time that i blog is when im doing my extended hours. =.=

lost track of days lately. Saturday doesnt feel like a Saturday anymore. Sunday only feels like a Sunday when i am able to go to church. so practically everyday is a weekday.

how i wish life is a bit different. was talking to sis and bro in law the other day. sis was saying that the photographer's work is so boring. everyday doing the same thing, telling people to smile and move a bit to the left and right so and so.. then i added, worse still is if the bride is a not so okay looking bride =\

whose job isnt boring awy? everyone's job is a daily routine thing.. we humans get tired of things after doing the same thing for a long period of time. not surprising at all.

been working for almost a year and a half now. lately im getting more and more sick of my job that im not even sure is it because im in the wrong field or because im just tired of the same routine job everyday. everyday im trying to find new things to do. ive got a dog now and i love her to bits. she's like a responsibility that sometimes i get annoyed.. but when i see her, my heart softens each time.. as naughty as she is, she is still my little baby that i love..

other than Lexie, i have my series :) but series sucks.. i feel lost each time when the series that im watching comes to the end. so besides all this, life is all about work.. sometimes friends.. most of the time my sister and her wedding planning.. sister can be a nuisance at times u see :P but she's my only sister.. so yea, i guess its okay for her to annoy me for a few more months before she becomes someone's wife :P


friends began to question me lately. why haven't i been joining their outings and being gung-ho about hanging out/partying and all nemore.. feel so old suddenly. think i prefer peaceful outings.. chit-chatting at a nice bistro with good ambience or just plain hanging out at home curled up on the couch watching a movie in the dark. haven't been clubbing haven't been dressing up much haven't even been shopping much lately. im just being all lazy and anti social for the past two months. even my sis was surprised that she said im turning into her.. LoL..

maybe its only for time being. being alone is almost like a therapy for me. a therapy for what i dont know. but i feel "undisturbed" when im alone.

havent been feeling very healthy lately. other than gaining weight and feeling fat all the time, been having horrible gastric. from time to time, ill have episodes of vomiting and feeling nauseated all the time.. if not, then it would be diarrhoea.. plus having migraine attack at times, i feel sick almost every day. =.=" realised bright light is one of the cause of my migraine! like after a few years, finally i found ONE cause! was looking at sis's hp the other day and she uses high light density, i immediately had this zig-zag vision and felt like puking after one minute staring at the screen.

was reminded of that time when i did endoscopy and it was a painful experience =( ok la not THAT painful la. but i would call it very kelian. having that stupid tube to be inserted right down the throat and being half conscious knowing that theres sth going down my throat and i kept coughing and wanting to puke.. =( but that time i had someone to accompany me in and hold my hand and leg (yes, leg.... =.=) when i was struggling.. hah.. i guess i wouldnt wanna go through that again. unless its REALLY REALLY necessary.


btw! me found a new foundation to ganti my Chanel! =) and i think it does an amazing job. wootsss


house chores awaiting today! Ahhhhhhhhh hate it.