insanity

someone once said

"the inability to accept loss is a form of insanity. but sometimes its the only way to help us stay alive.."


then someone else said

"time heals. sooner or later however great or heart piercing memories will tend to fade"


sane or insane really?


i've been observing this couple that comes monthly to the clinic to collect medicines. the wife is a Malay and the husband is a Chinese (a convert). the first time i saw her, i felt a twist in my stomach because i just know that she is not... ordinary. her face is always full of white powder and she would sit down n bang on the table with a loud sigh each time she comes to collect her medicine. on her left side, her husband is there. standing and listening to me dispensing patiently.

each time, his wife would go complaining about the medicines loudly and that she doesnt wanna take the medicine and all. the husband would patiently pat on her back and looked at me and said "sorry..... ignore her".. when this situation strikes, i can feel my heart softens and the only thing in mind is "how many of us can do what this uncle is doing?".. what we see is only that few minutes.. but what has been going on might have been years and yearsss. and more yearsss to come.. i know im being bias. but im extraordinary nice to this uncle when he comes because i really looked up to what he has been doing and the patience n love he has for his wife. be it love or responsibility, i'm impressed.

how many can actually be there for the person they love through bad and suffering times? saying words and languages of love can be so easy. but how many can actually do it ?


......

things have been..... not very well lately. nobody knows and nobody should know. the only person ive known for years and knows that im not well told me "just come to me when theres anything"..

but im not someone who goes telling people im not well. im someone who says "im okay. im good. i am.. haiya, same lorrr"..


its all in the mind. if u choose to ignore it, it will be away for a while. but the next thing u know, its back in ur mind again.


Isaiah 55:8-13


signing off.........