my biggest lesson

disclaimer : i wrote this post just for myself to read back in the future. just so that i know what happened and how much i should appreciate people around me more :) and i dont think i've ever been so open about my feelings before.. i just felt this is really really a huge lesson in my life and i shall not hide what i've learnt :)

you know how people always say "life is short, appreciate what you have now"


yea like every other person, i say the same thing from time to time. not knowing the TRUE meaning of it.

until last few days.......


it was when i really really realise how fragile life is and how short and how long we ought to live in this world is really not under our control at all..

it is probably one of my biggest lessons in life so far.. it may not appear to anyone how this can affect my perception and thinking sooo much.. but it really did hit me big time.. like a super loud wake up call..

now that i think back, i am surprised myself how worried and how freaked out i was when i first heard of him being in icu and his condition was bad..

at that point of time, i was just so worried.. i tried whatever ways to find out how was he and contact whoever to get to know about his condition without thinking twice..

im not sure if he stands a special position in my heart still but from what happened, i know deep down i care for this person a lot a lot. despite all the arguments and lost in touch for some time..... its funny how we care for each other and we're always there for each other no matter how long we've not been in touch.. ok maybe ive never been there for him much.. :S he's also the first person i fast and prayed for..... in fact, i did not even hesitate even one second to do it..


he's all fine and well now. hearing his voice again made me feel so much better.. i was just filled with guilt and sorrow for the words i've said and how we suddenly turned from very close to total strangers... i promised myself that if he recovers, ill put down all my ego and tell him how this experience changed me..


and i did :)

told him i was so scared that he'll be gone forever.. he only said something simple and most probably he said the same thing to his zillions of friends..

"im fine now.. don worry alright? i wont be lost in the middle of no where k.. muaksss.. will always have to be there for you one marrr"

its funny how we've known each other for yearsss. but the times that we spent together is sooo little..... yet whenever we face anything or we felt lonely, we'll think of each other right away.. and even though we've got not much to talk about, it just feels so much better to have each other around.. he's just one of those friends who i appreciate a lot a lot even though we're living a total different kinda lifes and he's just one hell of a pain in the ass at times! =p

promised myself wont argue with him ever again. lol :) shhh, he shall not know about this.. hehe :)